The Burn

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I’ve talked about The Burn a good bit lately, but I wanted to have a separate post for other posts to link to, since it’s becoming so fundamental to our journey. So please accept my apologies if this is redundant. But it’s very important! And it can save you lots of time and pain. Plus, this is one of my shortest blogs posts ever…

The burn is basically just surrendering to the fire when you’re triggered and letting it have its way with you. But you’re not acting out or anything, like smashing windows and yelling and screaming. You’re just breathing. Something happens that you don’t like, and a part of you is shouting “NO” to the universe. “I don’t like this. This sucks. This isn’t okay. I’m not okay with this.” Sound familiar? It sure does to me. It could be something major or it could just be something minor, like you’re running late and there’s a slow driver in the left lane. And they don’t seem to understand the one rule of the road, that the left lane is for passing!!! WHAT’S WRONG WITH THESE DAMN PEOPLE, DON’T THEY KNOW?!?! Whoa, rant narrowly averted… I’m cool… I’m good… [deep breathing] Back to the story…

When things happen that you don’t like, or even if you’re experiencing major anxiety, see if it feels like a part of you is on fire. Or maybe it feels like a cringe, that’s the same thing. Now think of this as your ego unraveling (because that’s actually what it is). It’s something that you no longer need, and the universe triggered it so it’ll burn away. And when the stuff we no longer need is gone, there’s more space for the soul to inhabit the body. Yay. I know, that should have an exclamation point. Yay! I think “yay” with a period is pretty funny, though. And speaking of using different punctuation, try putting an exclamation point where a question mark should go sometime. Like in a serious text in which an exclamation point is just not appropriate at all. It’s pretty funny. Back to the story again…

The small stuff is really the place to start, so that you can master this and be less rocked when the big stuff goes down. Like wanting a traffic light to stay or turn green. Or a car to go faster. Or the urge to check your phone when you hear it beep to see who texted you. Just notice the feeling in your body, if there is one. And take a breath and open. And then check your phone. That’s all I’m talking about. That urge usually comes with a feeling, and it’s interesting to get to know it, and to get to know how quickly it can pass. I have people do this with just about anything. The smart phone, in fact, is the perfect place to practice. Most people these days habitually do things to pass the time, like playing a game or checking social media or sports or the news or whatever it might be. Just take that breath and open your body first, so that you’re doing the same thing but with an open, relaxed body. No big deal, only takes a second. You might be amazed at how these energies arise and then clear out; it’s kind of freaky! And the more you live this way, the less stuff will build up that you end up carrying around. Way less stress. Yay.

Notice that when we’re triggered or cringing or burning, we’re not trying too hard to figure out why we feel the way we do. The more you just align with the breath and don’t try, the more a reason will just pop in your head if you even need one. Else it’s just another layer of ego unraveling. Bye bye, good buddy! Bye bye good buddy? Bye bye good buddy. Just kidding… Put your hand on your heart if you feel to and take a deep breath. This sort of tells the burning one inside, “I know it hurts. It’s going to be okay, though. Just stay with it.” Then just go on about your day. You’re surrendering to the fire and letting it burn off anything that you no longer need, and the miracle is that when you do this, it often passes more quickly than you’d think. When you get in your head, though, or try to fix it and make it go away, it ends up being much worse. The burn actually is the fix! Read that again… The burn is the fix. Because stuff that no longer serves you is leaving. Think about that, because that’s the key to the whole thing. This will totally change your relationship with pain. Pain means that growth is happening. It’s so counter-intuitive, I know. But now we’re starting to view things from the soul’s eyes, finally! So there we go, happy burning to you. And as always, let me know if I can help.

Whatever – Or WHOEVER – Arises, Love That

Posted Posted in Essential Topics, My Stories

So I learned about the teacher Matt Kahn sometime in 2015 (YouTube channel here). He published his first book not long after, and I pre-ordered five copies. I wanted to support his work, sensing that it was very important. And I wanted one for myself, as well as some to give away. In fact, I gave the last one away just a week or so ago. I’m slow sometimes… Oh, and I wanted the freebies that came with each increasing order, like some downloads of audio teachings. So I got five.

I’m not sure when the book arrived, but when it did, I started reading. This would’ve been in early 2016. I read the first two or three chapters and put it down, not picking it up again. The problem wasn’t the book, it was me. I wasn’t ready. I didn’t know this at the time, though. At the time, I just wasn’t feeling it. Honestly, I wasn’t feeling anything in terms of reading. I felt like I’d read my ass off for over ten years and it was time to live it. Now.

So time passed, and life had plenty of ups and downs. And there were some major downs. I truly learned how to feel really crappy stuff, going through a big heartbreak situation with a beautiful woman. I wrote about that some in late 2016 without really saying what was going on. It was intense, though! But it cleared me out of some serious gunk, that’s for sure. And it deepened my capacity to hold big feelings and energies. Was it fun? Absolutely not! I don’t know why this earth setup is how it is, but I know that it is how it is. And it can be pretty brutal. And arguing about it or bitching about it only makes it worse – I actually have a tremendous amount of experience with that, as a few of my friends can attest. They’ve even found my bitching amusing. I’m hoping that I’m finally getting over that phase, and I’ve been doing pretty well with it lately. Matt Kahn’s work has helped to shift it. But let’s face it, earth can be rough!

So I got to a much better place as the new year rolled in, and it felt good to be feeling good again. By the way, I love Robert Earl Keen and his song, Feelin’ Good Again. So life rolled on and I started to get super busy at work. And the sessions were rocking. Then just over a month ago I downloaded the audio from the Matt Kahn Feel Good Now retreat that I wrote about here, for those that might want to buy it. It’s SO worth the $111, by the way, for all those hours of talks and teachings, if you’re even slightly inclined. Just read the post and feel into it; there’s no wrong answer.

So I listened to it, mostly on a drive back from the NC mountains, and it freaking peeled me open. I’ve been peeled open many times before, and for pretty long periods of time, too. And I’m ready for it to last. I’m ready for a new floor, a higher floor. And it truly feels like this is it. Because it involves the most powerful stuff in existence, love. That’s never been in my arsenal. I’m just not naturally a heart person; I’m a thinker. This really is a new spiritual paradigm that’s emerging, though, and it’s so different than the old one when you take a close look. I’ve learned that the old one wasn’t working for me anymore – it had a low ceiling – because I’ve already done that stuff. As Matt says, I was in the wrong classroom. And the right classroom feels so… right. And it’s the classroom of healing the heart.

I’m writing this to give you some background, and also because it hit me that what I’d gotten from that retreat I was listening to was that I could love whatever part of myself needed it in any moment. As I said in the recent unveiling of A Clean Mind 3.0, it was the track called Showing Innocence Respect. And I truly “got it” that we all have this innocence inside of us that is good and that has been really hurt over the years. And it needs our own love to heal and be melted. And it is worthy of our love. Anytime, anyplace. So after this huge realization, I remembered that book! It was maybe a couple of weeks ago, and I thought, “Wait, this is exactly what that book must be about!” So it was the teaching in the retreat that got me doing and living and practicing what the book is about – Whatever Arises, Love That – all this time later. The perfection of timing…

So today I wanted to share a problem I had in the beginning when I first tried to read it. When a crappy feeling arises, I don’t love it. In fact, I can’t stand it, I hate it. I want it to leave. And the events from last fall have gotten me to a way better place with these energies like anger or sadness or whatever – so that’s good. I don’t hate them as much because I’m not identifying with them as much in the moment. I have a more innocent relationship with it. And I know it’s showing up so that a part of my ego can be melted, leading to much more peace and happiness later. And I think that shift will continue to deepen. But still, it was too much to ask to love whatever arises. And then I realized it was more about whoever arises. I realized that behind the feeling is an old part part of me that’s hurt and that needs love. And I can absolutely love that little guy! I can love him like he’s never been loved before, drenching him and feeding him with that powerful breath, and sometimes with a hand on the heart as well. Because he is innocent and he deserves it. Bam, what a shift! It all clicked.

I haven’t even read the rest of the book yet, but I probably will soon. But I’m pretty sure that what I’m doing now with myself and with clients is the essence of this teaching, which feels like the essence of the new spiritual paradigm that’s emerging. Whatever Arises, Love That. Or Whoever Arises, Love Her or Him. Because s/he deserves it. And I can do that. And it feels amazing.

We’ll be talking more specifically in future writings about what this looks like in the moment, to make sure we’re super clear. It’s pretty amazing, though. For instance, you might be mad at yourself. And you might find it impossible to love yourself in that moment. But can you love the mad one, the one that refuses to love? The one that’s having trouble being loving? Maybe you can love that one. Picture the part of you that says “No! I can’t do that!” S/he has arms folded and a stern look. Doesn’t that one need a freaking hug?? Or can you imagine an innocent little kid inside of you that really, truly wants to be a good person and to have a smooth life? Can you love him or her? Absolutely! And if not, you’ll get the hang of it with practice, and it’ll be second nature before you know it. So there we go, just expounding on this new part of the journey some. Because you can usually find some part in there that you know damn well deserves some love. And when you give it, it starts to spread to the other parts. And it feels really good, really safe. And you start to feel whole as these parts get melted. So all the best to you, happy practicing, and as always, let me know if I can help.

Introducing… A Clean Mind 3.0!

Posted Posted in Essential Topics, My Stories, Spirituality/Religion

It’s here, folks, A Clean Mind 3.0. Woohoo!! This represents the third iteration (I think) of this wild adventure that began in 2011. I think we’re really onto something now, and it’s faster and more powerful than anything I ever could’ve imagined. Like its predecessor, it’s a 24/7 approach, it’s incredibly simple, and it’s very far-reaching, extending to every aspect of your life, every aspect of this interesting human experience that we’re all having. But this new version is waaaay more powerful. And I’m sooooo psyched! This literally represents a new way for a new day, a new time, a new age. This is big, and it’s important. And it’s here. Shall we begin? YES. And sorry for the delay in getting this out, but I’ve never been so busy. I’ve even done some weekend sessions. I know, knock you down with a feather. Honestly I’m bored a lot on weekends, anyway, and it really is rewarding to help people. This level of work is unsustainable for me, but it feels like the phase I need to be in now. Anyway, here we go…

I talked a little bit about this in the preview that I recently wrote. And I told you how it’s all about self-love. But on steroids! Healthy steroids, that is… You see, recently I finally “got it” that when we’re triggered in any way (angry, scared, sad, anxious, stressed, confused, etc.), what’s really showing up is an old, innocent, wounded part of us. And it needs love. And we give it love on the spot with a deep breath into the heart. Putting a hand on the heart can make it more powerful, too. But the point is, an innocent part of ourselves is showing up and saying, “I need your love.” So we give it. Done. And then we deal with the situation at hand. When you get the hang of it, that breath feels like a freaking fire extinguisher of awesomeness and safety and okayness. It just feels amazing. And again, then we deal with the situation at hand, whatever the trigger was. And this is our practice, 24/7.

Let’s talk for a moment about the generalized history of every human to see if we really do have these old hurt parts that need some attention. Let’s see, how does it all begin? So we’re in this awesome warm fluid and all of our needs are taken care of. We don’t even have to worry about eating or going to the bathroom. We have shelter. All is well. And then what happens? Wham! We get pulled out of the womb and slapped on the ass. Time to learn how to breathe, little buddy! “This sucks! It’s cold out here! And what’s up with this breathing stuff?? Oh, and what are those… scissors? Wait, you’re walking towards me with scissors?? But you wouldn’t possibly use them to cut my body, no way. Wait, you’re still getting closer… What’s that look on your face? You’re opening the scissors now… You’re really going to touch me with those things? You’re going to actually cut me?? Noooo!!!” And there goes the umbilical chord. Oh, and we’re still no longer in that awesome warm home, and we’re still trying to figure out how to breathe. And if that’s not enough, many young boys get… circumcised. “NOOOO!!!”

So there we go, folks, there’s your first trauma, your first wound. Then they stack up after that, big and small. It doesn’t have to be something major like abuse, war, or a major car accident. When somebody says something mean to you in third grade, for instance, it’s very traumatic for that little kid. When your parents tell you you can’t have that piece of candy at the grocery store and you freak out, it’s very traumatic for that little kid. You get the idea. These are the wounds of our heart, big and small. And now we’re decades older and we all have our own unique collection of these old hurts, these old wounds. Any version of us that didn’t get the attention that it wanted back then is still in there, waiting for it. Needing it. Literally! So the intelligent, connected universe brings us the exact situations we need that will trigger those old wounds, so that they’ll show up to finally get what they’ve wanted and needed all this time – your love. And as YOU give it, with that breath to the heart, those old wounds melt and are finally healed and integrated. As your heart gets healed in this way, you start to become whole again. And you feel better and better. You feel stronger, more secure, and even smarter. Because you’re loving yourself back into wholeness. This stuff works, y’all. It really does.

Let’s take a quick look at that “intelligence of the universe” that we mentioned above. It’s the same intelligence that knows how to turn a tiny acorn into a massive 300-year-old oak tree, supporting all kinds of other life like resurrection ferns and squirrels and birds. There’s a super amazing song called Resurrection Fern by Iron & Wine, by the way. Back to the story… It’s the same intelligence that keeps the cells in your body from getting into a traffic jam. And do you know how many cells are estimated to be in the human body? Have you ever really thought about this? Thirty-seven trillion. Thirty-seven trillion. Trillion! What??  That’s insane. We could go on and on, looking at the structures of things big and small, from a cell or an atom to a galaxy and a universe. You can see how the Golden Mean shows up everywhere, and that comes from a simple sequence of numbers called Fibonacci Numbers that even a child could understand. And it’s all over nature, this same magical number. Regardless of your views, there’s an intelligence that can’t be denied. And this intelligence knows you. And it knows your heart. And it knows your wounds. And it knows that you’re ready to heal them. Right there on the spot when you’re triggered and an old part of you shows up needing love. This stuff works.

Now let’s take a look at the overall idea of self-love, because I’ve written about that a bunch on this blog, especially in this self-love summary post from February 2016. And I’ve had quite the journey in that department. You see, I realized that I was really tough on myself just about four years ago. I stopped the inner yelling a long, long time ago, but there was just this subtle inner critic that couldn’t really be 100% pleased. You see, I’m a Virgo with two math degrees, so I can be a bit critical. Understatement… And that makes it really tough to have an overall, automatic, total self-love! Because it’s like this huge, over-arching thing of do I love my whole self? All of it? For a critical person, flaws will instantly pop up, things you don’t like about yourself. Things you’re critical of. And if it’s not 100% then it doesn’t feel like total self-love. So “loving myself” in totality was just too much to ask.

But it did start to shift the more I took a deeper look. I started to see that Earth is tough! It’s a really, really difficult place for everyone, to some degree. So I started to respect that and have more compassion for myself and others. Still, though, I wasn’t totally there. And then the teacher Matt Kahn that I’ve mentioned before totally peeled me open. I was listening to the audio tracks from his Feel Good Now retreat, which I recommend that you consider buying here. One of my friends says to watch out, though! It turned her life upside down, but she’s so cleared out now from her most major life issue, something really old. In a matter of a few days. It’s been a major clearing, a major shift. And now she’ll live and integrate this huge shift. But she said there should be a warning label on it. I said, “I tried to tell you it’s powerful…” And she said, “I know, but I just didn’t believe it was that powerful!”

Anyway, there’s a track on there called Showing Innocence Respect. And I truly “got it” that there’s this core innocence inside of each of us that is good and that wants to show up as a really good person. It’s had a tough time in this weird earth place that can be super harsh. And it’s been shut down. But it’s still there, and all it needs is some loving attention. So that’s what shows up when life triggers us, that wounded innocence. And as we love it on the spot, without even a single thought, but with a breath, it gets healed. And we feel stronger and better than we ever could’ve imagined. So cool.

But it gets even cooler, because do you know what happens next? The universe responds. We’ve finally shown up to be the one that loves ourself back to wholeness, and we’re the only one that can do it. But the ability to do this, the strength to do it, is built-in. And the more we’re loving ourselves, the more the universe seems to show up to reflect that. And things shift. The shifts that you were struggling with for so long start to happen naturally and effortlessly. It’s like the emergency brake was on the whole time, and you finally noticed it and released it. And the car goes faster and smoother and feels so much better. Relationships might shift, finances might shift, your job might shift, physical health might shift. Just be committed to this one thing – loving any part of you that shows up in any moment that needs it – and the rest will take care of itself. Because you are finally dealing with the cause, and all the rest are effects. So cool!

So there we go, folks. I know it might sound a bit weird now. Thanks for your patience, because this is new and I’m getting better at communicating it. But rest assured, there will be plenty of future writings that will go into more specific detail about what this looks like in the moment. But the essence is that I get triggered and I instantly breathe a breath of love and assurance into my heart to melt the one inside that’s triggered, the part of me that’s telling me that it needs it. And that little guy in there goes sort of like, “Ahhhh…” in a very relaxed, soothing way. Rather than the freaking out he was doing just a few seconds prior. And then I respond to the situation at hand. Wash, rinse, repeat. And the hand on the heart is pretty damn powerful – feel the warmth, especially as you put your breath there. Happy practicing, and I’ll be back with more later. Because now we’re at A Clean Mind 3.0. And it only gets better and better from here. Enjoy!

The Amazing “Resources” Email That I Always Send Out

Posted Posted in Cool Supernatural/Paranormal Stuff, Essential Topics, Spirituality/Religion

It just occurred to me that I haven’t shared with you the “Resources” email that I send to clients, and of course to friends if they ask. I used to write down good books and such for clients in our first session, and then my hand started to hurt. So I got smarter (or lazier?) and started to email it. And though there were the “greatest hits” that were helpful for almost any of us, various other clients would resonate with various other things. And so the email grew. And it grew. And it grew some more. It’s been at the same place for a little while now, so I figured it’s a good time to share it here with you. And at some point, I should have it as its own page on this website. And yes, I’ve been meaning to redesign this site for like two years. I really should get on that… But in the meantime, here it is! And yes, this is lots of familiar stuff to those of you that have read my blog for a while. Still, it’s nice to have it all in one place. And by all means, share it with those in need! ALWAYS. It really has helped some folks. And it’s very cost-effective. Here we go, just pretend this is an email now. This is not a blog post. This is an email.

Hi [First Name],

Great stuff…

The Untethered Soul by Michael Singer
Chapter 11 (Pain, the Price of Freedom) teaches us how to feel. This is essential! Also see my blog 6-28-16 about this exact chapter. And the rest of the book is amazing, too. But this chapter is really helpful, so I often recommend that people read it first, especially if they’re carrying lots of “stuff.” Then start at the beginning with his hilarious description of the insane voice in the head and go from there.

Dying To Be Me by Anita Moorjani
If you’re interested, this is an amazing near death experience and miraculous cancer comeback. AMAZING! One of the best books I’ve ever read or listened to. Great Audible audio version, too. Use your Amazon login if you have that, or else create a free account on Audible. And here’s a pretty in-depth blog post I wrote about it.

Somebody Should Have Told Us by Jack Pransky
This is one of the main books to read, and you’ll probably have to order it from Amazon or something. It’s a very relaxed, conversational book about how we all have built-in wisdom and how our body “feels our thinking” rather than feeling the world directly. In other words, our experience of life is happening inside-out and not the other way around. And it sure seems like it’s the other way around! I highly recommend this book to anyone. A very relaxed read, too.

The Surrender Experiment by Michael Singer
His memoir of saying YES to the universe for forty years. Amazing! Would be great for audio, too. Not so dense, just a memoir. And for a taste, here’s my blog post on it.

Judgment & Self-Judgment
Always an important topic! I wrote two posts about this around St. Patricks’s Day 2016 and then followed them up around St. Patrick’s Day 2017. The latter one links to the two prior ones, all good stuff. And SO important for your peace!! Big time. Here’s that most recent one.

Talking Nicely To Yourself
Matt Kahn is amazing! Here’s a post I wrote that links to a video that’s life changing. He has TONS of videos, too, as well as a book called Whatever Arises, Love That. And he’s working on another book as well.

The Space Within by Michael Neill
He’s a really good teacher. Same background as Jack Pransky. Definitely worth a read. And look for the deeper feelings that he talks about, starting right now in this moment! Also my blog post on that.

The Happy Train!
This is awesome when dealing with difficult people. An amazing attitude to cultivate! Blog post here.

The Relationship Handbook by George Pransky 
This might be good as well. Same orientation as Jack Pransky and Michael Neill, specifically for relationships.

Sign From My Dad
I’ve gotten lots of signs from my dad since he passed in 2002, and so have my brothers. This blog post describes the apex, from a trip to Israel.

Amazing, Fun Reincarnation BooksMany Lives, Many Masters by Brian Weiss and Soul Survivor by Bruce and Andrea Leininger.

Amazing, Fun Out of Body Experience (OBE) books: Robert Monroe’s three books, in order. They’re called Journeys Out of the Body, Far Journeys, and The Ultimate Journey. Each one gets deeper. Mind blowing! And real. I went to the Monroe Institute in 2006, too, and did their Gateway Voyage program. It’s like consciousness camp. So cool.

The Field by Lynne McTaggart
An amazing survey of “the new science.” Mind blowing things that are happening in science labs that totally expand how we see things. Astonishing and exciting and fun to read. Wow.

Thoughts On An Updated Christianity: Blog post here.

The Law of Attraction. Abraham Hicks is one of the main teachers of this, and Sarah Prout is a newer teacher one. The main Abraham Hicks book is Ask and It Is Given, and they have tons of videos. You can search the web for “Abraham Hicks [fill in the blank]” and there’s probably a video on it. And you might try Sarah Prout’s Ancient Manifesting Ritual for $9. Because it’s only $9, so why not? But be careful about what you truly want, because you’ll be tapping into some serious power! She’ll send emails for good blog posts, too, and if you get too many, just unsubscribe.

2017: Walking In Source Love (For Real…)

Posted Posted in Breathe Yoga Newsletter, Essential Topics

Happy New Year, folks! It’s so nice to talk to you now, because I’m really excited for 2017. Why? Because of all the ground we’ve been covering lately. 2016 was huge! Whoa. It saw the beginning of some BIG shifts for me personally, which are definitely still taking shape, and they weren’t always fun. I’m not sure exactly why, but that’s just how earth works sometimes. But we’re on it; we really are starting to figure this gig out. And I think I’m finally ready to write it all down in a clear and concise book, too. I just need to make the time for that, and I have absolutely no idea how that’s going to happen at the moment… Anyway, our journey is starting to culminate with a serious foundation of peace, a serious foundation that despite what’s going on and despite the energies that are in my body now (i.e. feelings), I’m okay. And that’s huge! It’ll take bigger and bigger things to rock us. And when we do get rocked, there’s still a knowing that it’s temporary – SO important – and that the true essence of what we are is unchanged. That’s big, too. Again, this is just how we grow sometimes. So we are going to embrace these times more and more to speed things up. That’s something we’ll be talking more about going forward.

This past year, we really started to wade into deeper waters here at A Clean Mind, especially in August (my birthday month, interesting…) with The God PostDeeper Feelings of Peace in YOU, and Plugging In. Check that stuff out. And after that, we talked about the vast near-death research by discussing the book Dying To Be Me. Definitely check that out! So what are we going to do in 2017? We’re going to put it all together by owning, until it’s KNOWN at the deepest of levels, this one thing: I am loved. Anyplace, anytime. I am loved. Right here, right now. I am loved. Regardless of who I am or what I’ve done. Yes, I am still loved.

I know it often doesn’t seem that way, and I alluded to that at the end of the recent Merry Xmas Eve (& Just Do Your Best) post. When we’re feeling really low, if we take a super close look, we might see that what’s at the root of it is that we’re actually feeling unloved. We’re wanting love from someone or something outside of us, and we’re not getting it. In truth, what we’re really thinking is that we need love from that someone or something. It’s like we’re trying to plug our plug into the wrong socket. You see, that stuff is not our Source. If you try to plug a lamp into a pair of socks, for instance, the light won’t turn on; it just doesn’t work that way. And it’s not good or bad; it’s just not how it works. You have to plug it into the right power source. And there’s only one! And it’s all around us, and it’s unconditional. But we sure try to plug into all kinds of various people, places, things, foods, drinks, hobbies, activities, etc. I sure do, and I’m recognizing it more and more. Because it just doesn’t work; not for long, anyway.

So this year, we’ll be stepping up our efforts to obliterate the feeling of being unloved. Why? Because we’re going to see more and more that it is simply not true. All the time. You are loved. The first step is to take a deep look around and learn that you are always loved. And the second step is to own it more and more, especially when you’re triggered. Remind yourself of the truth. And after a while, you’ll be feeling it more and more. So how do we learn that we’re always loved? We’ve talked plenty here about how if you look in pretty much any direction, you’ll find this to be true. The religions certainly say it, but you might have to look past some of the man-made parts (and guilt is a man-made part, by the way). The message is that you’re a being that totally transcends the body that you think you are now. So that’s good news. And that what made you loves you. Unconditionally. The spiritual traditions certainly say that what you are is totally, unconditionally loved. And quantum physics says that we aren’t separate and that we are actually all part of this ONE big sea or field of energy. And some of the folks that have had the spiritual “wake-up” or enlightenment experience have SEEN and experienced that this sea or field is actually love. I’ve mentioned John Mark Stroud before, because he’s helped me so much, and he is one of those people. His experience was in 2011. The astronaut Edgar Mitchell had a similar experience on the way back from walking on the moon on the Apollo 14 mission many decades ago. Since he was such a staunch scientist, the rest of his life was devoted to figuring out scientifically what on earth had happened to him! So he founded the Institute of Noetic Sciences (IONS). There are lots of these folks if you take a look around.

Finally, the near death experience (NDE) research is VERY compelling, especially if you are super logical. Take the blind person (born blind) that died in a hospital for a few minutes, was revived, and was still blind. Those eyes have never seen. And then she described the scene in the hospital room as they attempted to revive her in what can only be described as visual detail. Folks, when this happens I pay attention. Like, lots of attention. And it has happened… Watch the documentary called Afterlife on Netflix. Anyway, it’s pretty clear from these accounts, and there are tons of them with more coming out all the time, that there’s this feeling – this amazing feeling! – that’s experienced when one “crosses over.” And if this all sounds weird to you, just be logical; that’s my best advice (see: blind dead person above that saw while blind and dead). And note that simply saying “That’s crazy or impossible” is not being logical…

I even met a friend of one of my cousins, and he had had one of these experiences. I want to video him telling his story, in fact. And it was the same – that feeling, that amazing feeling! He couldn’t stop talking about that amazing feeling of unconditional love. Anita Moorjani said the exact same thing in Dying To Be Me, speaking about that amazing feeling that words cannot describe. And an old friend of mine had an NDE when giving birth to her second son, and because of that amazing feeling, she didn’t even want to come back. And she had a newborn and a two-year-old! And my cousin’s friend from above had a wife and two small children, all of whom he loved dearly. And he didn’t want to come back, either! Because the love that they experienced while out of body was so unlimited that even the strongest of earthly loves, that of parent to child, paled in comparison. WOW. Folks, this stuff is real.

So why are talking about this? Because we are still connected to that same unconditional love right now. Read that again. We are still connected to that same unconditional love right now. Most of us have lost touch with it to some degree, though, and this is the year that we are finally owning it. Remember my client that talked about this deeper feeling of peace she was experiencing, even while at work? And I told her that I experienced the same thing sometimes, more and more often. Well, that’s what we’re talking about, that’s the feeling! It really is inside of us, built-in. So we put all of these pieces together, and it points to the fact that love is never missing. It can’t be! It just can’t be. But as I’ve said plenty of times, it sure can seem like it. So in 2017, we are owning the truth more and more. We are claiming our birthright of being loved, always. It’s tricky when we’re triggered, I know. So we try to catch it as quickly as possible and get centered in the fact that we are still just as loved in that moment as we can ever be, despite the situation that’s going on. What we are at the core has not changed, despite this. And we start to live this way more and more, owning that we are big and that we are totally loved, and this feeling becomes more and more our home base, our lived experience. So cool. But remember that we have to get really good at feeling our feelings, because those old energies that we’ve been carrying for so long cover up the unconditional love that sits beneath it all, always.

So there we go, folks! You can see why I’m so fired up. We’ll be getting more and more specific about all of this, and of course we’ll let it unfold naturally as always. And as I continue to deepen and get cleared out myself, I’ll share with you as best I can. So buckle up! Because we’re on quite a ride. But we’re starting to find ourselves more and more on solid ground, even when life gets tough. Especially when life gets tough. Because that’s how we’re learning to roll. So take care, and I’ll talk to you pretty soon, I hope. I’ve been working too hard lately, so I’m on an old school road trip for a little while. I’ll be back soon, though, and ready to go. I’m glad we’re traveling together, and I wish you a wonderful year. And as always, let me know if I can help 🙂

More On That Pain I Mentioned… Pretty Cool

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Okay, so that didn’t take long… I just published a sharing a few days ago about the extreme highs and lows of this past year, and it feels important to explain a bit more. Not the details of any of the situations (not yet, anyway), but the details about pain and feeling in general. Because when we learn about these energies, where they come from, and how to allow them to move and be released, we end up being really cleared out, leaving us feeling much better, better than ever before. Here we go…

So in one very important sense, we are these vessels with LOTS of old energies we’re carrying around, and they gunk everything up. But it’s energy, so it wants to come out. In fact, it has to come out! Because energy has to move; it’s the law. So we get triggered all the time, which is the intelligent connected universe poking at our egos and pain and false beliefs to wake us up to the truth of what we actually are (which is not small). Remember when I wrote back in June about how it’s mandatory to learn how to feel and thus release these energies? If you want to experience peace, that is… Well, that’s when I finally started to actually DO the work. But get this, because this is important, and many of you are in your head a lot like I’ve always been… this was over ten years after first learning about it and thinking I had it down. And you know what? I totally had it down! In my head, though, which means that… I didn’t have it down at all. Ten years. One full decade. That was back in 2006, and it took me a whole freaking decade to finally sit down and do it. Because I was not ready. And deep down I was scared and only wanted to feel happy all the time (and thought that was actually possible, ha). So I want to save you some time and unnecessary pain. That’s what this whole blog is about, really.

What I wrote this summer was that every human should read chapter eleven of The Untethered Soul by Michael Singer. I mention this all the time, and it’s literally the first thing on the Resources email that I send to clients after our first session (which reminds me to make a page on this website that has those books. Note to self…). This chapter is called Pain, the Price of Freedom, and the second I read the name of the title, I intuitively knew it was very important, that it had the answer. It was an instant recognition. But here’s the funny thing, I didn’t feel to actually read it at the time. And since I’m not really judging myself much anymore, that was totally fine! I let life run its course and naturally unfold. I had read most of that book over a year before, but I skipped around and didn’t get to some of the chapters. And then this summer, I was triggered by a certain situation. I instantly had this terrible, awful feeling in my body – feeling like a piece of raw meat! – and I knew it was time. That chapter popped in my head right away, and I knew. So I said my goodbyes where I was, drove home, and read it immediately. One short chapter of one book. And it explained and simplified everything in a way that at least has worked for me and many others to whom I’ve recommended it. So that night, I finally began the journey of learning how to truly feel, and thus release, these old energies. Finally. Life = Changed.

So where do these feelings, these energies, these frequencies come from? We know from our many talks here at A Clean Mind that we’re living in the feeling of our thinking. So our thoughts, beliefs, and perceptions create them. Do you know what this means? And this is central to our work here – our body is now our best friend, our barometer. It tells us what’s going on in our mind, conscious or not. And because most of it is actually not conscious, we can see the genius of this feedback system called feelings. So we notice a feeling, we breathe into it and put some space around it, and we gently ask, “Where is this coming from?” And then we see what arises in our mind (and it’s perfectly fine for nothing to arise, because the energy will still move – and maybe something pops up later).

As an example, one very general way to explain a good chunk of our pain is that when I’m feeling super triggered about something, I’m often believing that what I truly am at the core is small and incomplete. But whether you look deeply at any religion, any spiritual path, the vast near death experience (NDE) research, or even quantum physics, you see that you cannot possibly be small! No way, not even close. You just can’t be. Believing that you’re ultimately small is like believing that 1+1=27. You are perfectly free to believe this, though, and for as long as you like, but it’s still not true and never can be, never will be. So when you’re triggered, you have an opportunity right then and there to correct the false belief of smallness and to remind yourself of the truth. Your body is telling you very clearly that you’re believing you’re small and incomplete, so you have a choice now to be very firm in reminding yourself that despite the energy that you don’t like that’s currently in your system, you are anything but small and incomplete; it’s just not true. You didn’t make yourself, and what made you knows exactly how to make things. And it did not screw up when it made YOU. Period. Read that again, literally as many times as you need to let it really, truly, finally sink in: What made you knows exactly how to make things. And it did NOT screw up when it made you. PERIOD. This is what I’ve been sharing with my clients for a while now, and it’s been changing their lives, and pretty fast in many cases. And it’s been changing mine, too. Pretty fast. Whoa.

As we do this more and more, these energies are finally able to be released from our system. This leaves more space inside, and you know what? A deeper peace is right there to fill that space. It’s actually been there the whole time; in fact, it’s not possible for it to ever NOT be there. We might not experience it in a given moment, though, because it gets covered up by all of these other energies, and that’s why we’re talking about this, that’s why the willingness and ability to feel is SO fundamental. If you want to experience peace, that is…

So what’s been happening with me recently? Well, the intelligent connected universe has seen how much better I’ve gotten at feeling. And you know what? It wants me to be totally cleared out (actually the real Me wants me to be totally cleared out), so it’s given me some major opportunities to feel and release even more! Like, more than I knew that any human was capable of. Not even a month ago. Wow. And listen, I’ve had it pretty easy in life compared to many people, at least in an earthly or worldly sense; I know that. Spiritual pain SUCKS, though, and I’ve had a freaking ton of that… Not fun. So for those of you that have experienced major trauma, I’m not comparing our experiences, and I have great respect for your experience. But I am saying that law is law, and what I’m attempting to describe here is law, as best I know it now. Facts are facts, and what I’m attempting to describe here are facts, as best I know them now. And I’ve helped people heal from major trauma by teaching them exactly this, and often they’ve gotten pretty quick results, too (but not always, of course, and I’m working on getting better at that). Folks, this stuff works.

So there we go, just some elaboration of my last post. I hope this makes some sense to you and maybe explains things a little bit better. This journey has been really rocking lately, and I’ve noticed that I’ve even ended up having major gratitude for some of the things that have been really rocking me. Because that’s how we shed our smallness and grow, owning what we truly are. And it’s WAY better on the other side. Also it’s my understanding that we aren’t really growing in a literal sense, but rather remembering and owning what we already are. Wow. It’s sounds like a subtle difference, but it’s big. And again, I do not understand this earth scene at all, and most others don’t either (and that includes most of those that think they do, because I’ve been one of them SO many times! And living more in I Don’t Know feels way better). So do your best to relax the body, hang in there, and stick with it. When you learn how to feel and release these old energies, though, and without analyzing them to death (which only makes it worse), they move a lot faster. It literally takes no thinking; just open and feel, and any insight about what’s going on has the space to just pop in your head when the time is right. And the intelligent connected universe will give you all the practice you need, always at the right time. And a deeper foundation of peace will come in to fill the space more and more. And that’s exactly what we want… peace. Peace out, my friend. And as always, let me know I can help.

How Is My Approach Different?

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I’ve often said that what I do with clients is a different way to do counseling or therapy. I don’t even really call it counseling or therapy, in fact; I call it fast growth or transformation. And is there any stigma associated with fast growth or transformation?? Thankfully, NO! Quite the opposite, in fact. And know that I definitely haven’t invented anything; I’ve just had good training and good teachers, and I always put it together in the best, most natural way for me. I hear all the time from clients that have been to other counselors, and they say this is totally different and much more effective. Why? In short, the word is “transformational.” My goal is to help you to understand that what you really are is probably way more amazing and powerful than what you thought you were. And when that shift happens, life can never be the same.

For one thing, what I do is mostly education. But it’s education that changes your life! It’s what would be taught in middle school in a more evolved society. Sure, I hold a safe space for people, I listen, and I don’t judge them and all that. But there’s lots of education. Education about what? About the fact (yes, fact) that there’s a good feeling already inside of you and that there’s an intelligence behind all things, pushing everything. I help people learn to get out of the way of something smarter that can not only handle life’s stressors but can also thrive. We get very specific about how people get in the way of this intelligence. The main way is by listening to a crappy voice in our head that, get ready for this, nobody else even hears or cares about! And they learn that there’s a better voice that’s always there, though it’s usually quieter. We call this our wisdom, or even our plain old common sense. Listening to the chatter creates feelings that layer on top of the deeper feeling of peace and contentment. So we have to learn how to feel, burning through those layers. Can you see that this isn’t even very complicated? It just takes practice. And we end up carrying a much lighter load. A client told me this today, in fact, after only one session. She’s getting out of the way to what’s already there. Awesome!

A big part of this is also major self-love and total worthiness. This gets into what we think we are, also known as our self-concept. Am I really a body that’s going to die? Well, there happens to be a mountain of evidence – yes, evidence – that says hell no! And there’s more coming out all the time. Read (or listen to) something like Dying To Be Me by Anita Moorjani, or watch the hour-long documentary Afterlife (on Netflix if you have that). Or read Soul Survivor by Bruce and Andrea Leininger. There’s a ton of this stuff out there, a freaking ton. And it says very clearly that you are not what you think you are. You are ridiculously magnificent, innocent, unlimited, infinite, loving, etc. Literally. Right now! So I help people with this “Self-concept,” and notice the capital ‘S’ this time. Pretty sneaky… And Self-love and worthiness are all built-in. Even if someone gets freaked out by the thought that they might be an eternal, amazing soul (or whatever word you choose), that’s fine; I’ll still help them with self-love. Because why not love yourself?? Have you ever really sat down and thought about it? Has the whole “being totally hard on myself” plan really worked? So we talk about that sort of thing.

Can you see how I might have a pretty cool job? I’m certainly not perfect at it, and there have been plenty of clients that I haven’t been able to reach. There have also been some that I saw once and assumed I didn’t reach, and then I ran into them or heard from them them six months later and they said that one session changed their life! That happened this weekend, in fact. So I’m always getting better at casting a wider net and being able to help more and more people; that’s how anything works, you get better with practice. But the transformations are happening at a pretty awesome rate, I’d say. This is not normal counseling, and thank heavens for that! Because if you talk to the people that go see counselors, you get the feeling that it can be really hit or miss. Much of it is lame, unfortunately, and the people say they just don’t learn anything. And I can’t even say it’s the therapists’ fault, because the training isn’t that great in general. It’s mostly a bunch of theories from the past that probably didn’t have that great a success rate to begin with. So why are we still studying that stuff?

Uh-oh, we’re teetering on the edge of a rant… Sorry! I don’t want to do that, I really don’t, so please accept my apology. It comes from a really good place, though, and that’s the desire for people to be happy if they truly want to be happy. And the desire for the “happiness experts” to be super effective at helping their clients reach this goal, and in the shortest amount of time. So I don’t want to put other counselors down personally (and a lot of them are amazing), because that’s not at all what this is about. What I am very clearly saying is that it’s time for an evolutionary leap for the entire counseling field. And I think the way I’m doing it is absolutely, clearly one such leap. The results are in, and it’s improving all the time. And there are many others out there doing phenomenal work as well. And many that are WAY better than me, too! Seriously…

So there we go, I just wanted to give you an idea of how this way is different in case you were wondering. And if you or anyone you know is looking, let’s do this! I’m ready for more!! More peace. This way tends to be faster overall (but of course not always), so there are often open slots. And we can do video or phone sessions if you’re not in Pensacola. I’m here to help if I can. And either way, I wish you the very, very best. Because the very, very best is what you ARE. Right here, right now, without having to lift a finger.

Introducing… A Clean Mind 3.0!

Posted Posted in Breathe Yoga Newsletter, Essential Topics

Hello again, good folks! It’s been a hot summer here in lovely and magnificent Pensacola, so I gave the staff at A Clean Mind the month off. We have exciting things on the horizon, though, including a rather interesting award that I’ve won. It’s still a secret, though, so I’ll let you know as soon as it’s been made public. It’s a testament to how powerful this work is, though, as well as a testament to how the world is changing and we’re starting to wake up to the fact that we’re much bigger and more powerful than most of us have thought. Which brings me to the introduction of the third phase of the evolution of this “work,” A Clean Mind 3.0! It’s still coming into focus, but I thought it would be fun to go ahead and talk about it.

When I started this gig over five years ago, I already knew that feelings would move if we would get out of the way and let them. And I knew that we could think calmly about things, too. We didn’t have to freak out and worry and think really fast all the time. We didn’t have to criticize ourselves so much, either. Then I started working at Gulf Breeze Recovery and learned about the Three Principles, and this began the second phase. In many ways it put words to what I had already been discovering, but it deepened things as well. I learned that our feelings came from our thinking, or how we see things, and I owned them as being self-created. And without judgment, too; just a fact. So it’s all an inside job – that’s how powerful we are as creators. And we have a good source of thinking built-in, whether you call it inner wisdom or plain old common sense. Listen to that more and more rather than the chatterbox, and the feelings will take care of themselves.

I was really still coming from a place of smallness, though, from the place of being a body, a meat suit, an ego, a separate self, or whatever you want to call it. I had a strong idea in my head that we were something much bigger than that, that we were actually whatever power it is that animates the body. Because there happens to be a whole slew of near death experiences and out of body experiences that are very compelling for a logical math major like me! There are tons of these accounts, and the most likely explanation in my mind, after surveying enough of them, is that we really are this amazing soul or consciousness or whatever the hell you want to call it. Words are just words, by the way, doing their best to point us to some meaning, so we don’t get too hung up on them.

Anyway, this third shift has really been about finally owning it. For real. Owning that yep, what those people experience in the out of body state, in all its glory, magnificence, power, innocence, and unlimitedness – well, that simply must be true for me, too. Otherwise it would not make any sense at all. The essence of each and every human, beyond the temporary body, simply has to be equal. Inequality just would not make sense. And so I’ve been owning that, breathing it in, letting it sink in. Undoing layers and layers of belief in smallness and guilt. And I’m not trying to understand with my head at all. Been there, done that! And then some…

So I’ve been owning that I’m not what I thought I was, and what I am is clearly WAY better. The other thing that makes it all click is the idea behind the book that I love so much, The Surrender Experiment. It is the fact (yes, fact – it takes a while to really get this! And I feel like I’m just getting started, by the way) that there’s an intelligence behind everything that is good and loving. And it wants us to thrive and be happy. So we keep getting out of the way, letting this intelligence be in charge. And things start to shift and click. And we start to see that wow, I think there’s really something to this, I think this really is how things work. So cool…

It also hit me a couple of months ago how deeply unworthy most of us feel. Unworthy of good stuff like an awesome life, whatever that means for us. So I’ve been breathing in worthiness, letting it sink in, deep in the body. Because if I’m really owning that I’m a magnificent, unlimited soul, then worthiness comes with the package. It has nothing to do with the “Ashley” that I’ve been thinking was me, and it most certainly doesn’t have to be earned. It only has to do with my true identity, which is the power that temporarily animates Ashley. Again, a major upgrade! So I’ve been spending some time owning my worthiness by closing my eyes and breathing it in. Just letting it sink in. I really will do video someday so you can see how simple this is (in the meantime, come see me (or Skype) if you’re curious). But it sure feels like some blocks are being removed. And I get the HUGE gift of seeing what happens in the lives of my clients as they start to live this way. Owning that they really are unlimited and that there’s a flow that wants them to be at peace.

Folks, this stuff works! I’m seeing the coolest shifts in my clients, as well as in me. And I know this is all new and it keeps unfolding, so of course I’ll be sharing the journey as that continues to happen. It is simply a deeper understanding of what the deal is, that’s all. A deeper understanding of what we really are. And that there’s something good in charge that lives inside of us and flows through us that can handle the details of our lives much better than we can. So there we go, A Clean Mind 3.0. It’s early, and it’s a bit clunky, but let’s just put it out there. Why wait? It’ll evolve faster that way anyway, I think. This is the art and science getting out of the damn way and knowing that at the end of the day, it’s all good. And I know that might sound crazy! Especially if you read the news, ha. It can take some time, but when you get a taste of it, you’re hooked. And my understanding is that it just deepens from there, never ending. And your life will never be the same. Thanks for being a part of my journey, and as always let me know if I can help 🙂

P.S. Let’s start a revolution, people, because it’s time for us all to wake up! Life is much more awesome that way. If anyone you know could use this understanding, then please send this to them or send them to me! I want more! It’s an honor to connect with people in this way. It’s just too fun, and it helps me hone my ability to communicate this as well. And it all just keeps spreading and spreading, too. And after a while, this “crazy train” Earth place will be totally transformed. But it doesn’t start with saving the environment or stopping wars or how you vote or any of that. It starts with you, and what you think you really are, now. And what you think is really in charge, now. Good stuff, and as always, let me know if I can help 🙂

Bookending Your Day

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Hi folks, I’m going to attempt to write a short blog post today. No promises, though. I think tried it once before, maybe a year ago. And, well, I guess I forgot… But this one will be perfect, and super powerful, too! Because we’ve been getting into some seriously powerful stuff recently, and this is a continuation of that, putting it into ACTION more and more. It’s all so simple and specific, too – I love it. I really am pretty pumped up right now. Folks, this is literally A Clean Mind 3.0 that’s being birthed now as my understanding of how stuff works deepens. And it’s my honor to share this journey of understanding with you!

It all started when we talked about how there are deeper feelings of peace that are built into each of us, as a client has recently been experiencing. Then we made a specific meditation or practice out of it, which can be done sitting with eyes closed or while shopping in the grocery store or in your favorite mall. We called it plugging in, but it’s really all about stopping and noting that you are already plugged in. Just sayin You were created plugged in, and you didn’t make yourself. And it’s not the kind of plug that can be pulled out of the socket. It’s all One. There is no true separation in reality, and even physics has figured that out (almost a century ago). Which means that you are as plugged in as it gets, all the time. It’s all about the awareness of this FACT, though, in any moment. So… let’s talk about the concept of bookending your days! Because it helps you to remember the truth.

So, what on earth does “bookending your days” mean? One of the definitions of “bookend” is a verb, meaning to “occur or be positioned at the end or on either side of something.” So we simply start and end our days right. And since thought is the cause of everything, we start and end our days thinking right. And since feeling comes from thought, we start and end our days feeling right. And why not do this while we’re actually in bed, both before we get out of bed in the morning and after we’ve gotten into bed in the evening? Sounds like a very convenient plan. So we simply do the practice of reminding ourselves that we are plugged into an infinite source, the creative source of the entire universe, right now! And we sink into the feeling that comes from that, breathing it into every cell of our body. We feel the whole universe flowing through us. I’m serious, people! Ahh…. Feels so good (wait, is that Chuck Mangione?? An inside joke from the King of the Hill cartoon).

So let me get this straight… We’re talking about FEELING plugged into the power source of the entire universe? And feeling this awesome, powerful feeling before we even get out of bed in the morning? And feeling it before we drift off to sleep each night? Can we really do that?? Yes! But rather than take my word for it, why not just try it out for two weeks to see what happens? Warning: there’s a pretty decent chance your life will not be the same. So there we go, we’ve introduced the concept of bookending your day. Now it’s time for practice. And another note regarding quantum physics, our everyday understanding is way outdated. It does not reflect the newer science at all. Newer, meaning from almost one hundred years ago. So we’re not exactly tearing it up, speed-wise… But connected means connected. It means not separate. You and everything else in the whole universe, now. So when we talk about something like “feeling the entire universe flowing through you,” we’re talking science! Not woowoo. Not spiritual. Factual. BAM! I get excited…

Here’s a word regarding what we’re thinking and feeling before we drift off to sleep. Wayne Dyer talks about just this very thing in his book Wishes Fulfilled. He believes that the five minutes before we fall asleep is crucial. He talks about how the vast majority of the mind is subconscious, and it’s really, really, really, really, really powerful. And it makes things happen in the world. It brings us gifts, good or bad. And it doesn’t know the difference, doesn’t care. So if we fall asleep while dwelling on how crappy our day was, our super powerful subconscious mind says, “Sweet, I guess you like these crappy things. So while you sleep, I’ll get you some more of them for tomorrow and for the days ahead!” Wha? The other option is to consider that you are infinite and unlimited before drifting off to sleep, and to feel what that feels like. Umm, which of those two options sounds better? Wayne says that the subconscious mind doesn’t use language and is programmed by feeling; that’s why the feeling state is so important. And my view is not to debate this stuff with the mind, but rather to feel it out instead. Does this sound plausible? Does it feel right? Why not give it a shot? At the very least, I’d rather feel good as opposed to feeling stressed out and depressed, so it sounds like a good idea to me regardless of whether the subconscious stuff is true or not. And if not, you’ll probably see some things begin to shift in your life. And that’s pretty powerful when you see that happen. Like, very powerful. In fact, it totally changes your view of cause and effect.

So there we go, we’ve introduced the concept of bookending your days. I invite you to play with this for a while. What’s the worst that can happen, you might feel super powerful and infinite and unlimited and at peace? That would suck… Just kidding. Seriously, though, give it a shot! And definitely let me know if anything cool or freaky or out of the ordinary goes down. And as I alluded to regarding cause and effect above, you can know that we’re starting to get outside the small box that is the conventional 3D earth rules. In fact, we’re just barely starting to blast that tiny little box away. So some interesting things might happen as a result… They will all be moving you toward an amazing life, though. Remember the moral of the story in Michael Singer’s awesome book The Surrender Experiment: life knows what it’s doing. And it’s actually always happening for you. Practicing the bookends might be a way to sort of speed things up, or to consciously drop into that flow. So happy practicing, and as always, let me know if I can help!

The God Post

Posted Posted in Breathe Yoga Newsletter, Essential Topics, Spirituality/Religion

NOTE: If you’re here to check me out as a potential counselor, this might or might not be a good measuring stick of what you’ll find, depending on your beliefs. I love to write about my take on “deep stuff,” but I’m an excellent and effective counselor for an atheist, too! I do my best to teach facts about our thoughts and feelings that alone can change your life, and you don’t usually get it in a counselor’s office. Such is that state of counseling now, lots of theories that may or may not help you. I prefer facts when possible. There are all kinds of posts on this blog, so take a look around as you wish. Thanks for stopping by, and all the best to you whether we meet or not. Here we go…

So we’ve been talking about the idea that we might actually live in a neutral universe, meaning that all the judgments that we constantly – and largely unconsciously – put onto everything are simply our own unique creations and not The Truth. Then we talked about the cool exercise of viewing people as trees, which is along the same lines and really makes the point. And we talked about how neutrality means that there’s no ultimate good or bad. Which means that there’s no judge to decide ultimate good or bad. But what about what people call “God?” Isn’t that the ultimate judge of good and bad?? So basically, my own blog pulled one over on me and very smoothly Jedi’d me into writing about what God might mean and might not mean, totally unbeknownst to me. I’ve been trying to stay away from this! I’ve had HUGE shifts recently in this department, though, so the timing is absolutely perfect. And this is really why I’m here anyway. When I started this “work” as a therapist and blogger five years ago (YAY!), and even when I wrote the post about neutrality just a couple of weeks ago, I had no idea it would lead to this. It’s like if you’re playing chess and someone starts to work you into a corner several moves ahead. They know where it’s headed, but you don’t. And then you’re there. And that someone is the whole universe, or God. And it’s probably not the idea of God you’ve learned about in church (unless you go to Unity or something more like that).

And please know that this is simply the beginning of a discussion about the concept of God, the truth about what God really is, and of course any mis-truths about it. Let’s be super chill as we read this and just ponder it. You are in charge of your beliefs, and only you! So all is good, all is relaxed. The earth is still spinning just fine, and there’s no rush for anything. Just let things sink in if they want to sink in. It’s just the beginning of a discussion, not a finished product or idea, no big deal. Okay, let’s do this…

As I recently wrote, I left religion when I was 17, because while I saw some divine in it, I perceived that it was wrapped in way too much man made stuff. Or maybe we should say human made stuff? Actually, the women are probably happy to let the men be blamed for this, which they actually are largely responsible for. And yay, the Goddess is finally returning! Wait, enough men bashing… Anyway, I’ve had quite a journey since. That was 25 years ago. And yes, my genes and immaturity make me seem much younger than I am. And I drink lots of water, too. Health tips from Ashley! Probably not the best idea…

Fast forward to just a month or two ago, and what a journey it has been! I never could have imagined what’s been happening, and I feel like it’s just now getting to a good place to really take off, to be honest. And I’m talking strictly about my “level or consciousness” or inner peace. Everything else flows outward from that. And speaking of levels of consciousness and peace, I think those are just a direct result of how much of “what we really are” is coming through this temporary being called Ashley (or insert your own name). How much of the soul is coming through and how much is ego. And trust me, there’s still plenty of ego in this body! Hey, I am where I am. And it’s actually quite perfect, which I’m finally starting to see and not resist so much.

So recently I realized just how much baggage I had with the word “God.” I’ve known this for years, but I’ve recently seen it more deeply. There was just a deep sense of separation in what that word meant to me. And I know that this is only one person’s experience, my own! So I have no idea what yours is. But I saw that no matter what I tried to tell myself consciously, deep down God meant a being that was separate from me. And there was implicit judgment and fear associated with this being. And I was never even into the mean, insecure Old Testament God, either! Which is an example of making God in man’s image, by the way, as opposed to the other way around. I was consciously believing that there’s no such thing as separation, but I was not feeling and experiencing that. Folks, this conditioning is very deep and unconscious in many, many of us… All good, though, because we are starting to figure it all out!

So my friend and teacher that I’ve mentioned before, John Mark Stroud, said to just call God “All That Is” instead. Because it’s just a freaking word! Don’t let a certain combination of three letters of one random language derail you. That’s pretty weak… So “all that is” helped a lot and really got me started towards a new understanding. And I’m doing my best with this whole capitalization thing, by the way. Let’s not be too picky about that. After all, words are just pointers…

So then I listened to the book Wishes Fulfilled by Wayne Dyer, whom I just love, and he calls God “the creative source of the universe.” Which is not separate from its creations, by the way. So you can see that we’re hammering away at this idea of separation and moving into Oneness. Or oneness, ha. There’s the capitalization thing again… And remember that the quantum physicists did the same thing almost one hundred years ago! And we’re still teaching separation to our children. It’s shifting, but as I’ve said before, this can be like turning the Titanic. But it’s happening. Even science obliterated the idea of true, 100% separation I think in the 1920’s. True separation does not, and cannot, exist in this universe. Let that sink in for a moment… (And know that it’s very good news)

So fast forward to just a couple of weeks ago, and the book Dying To Be Me by Anita Moorjani has BLOWN ME AWAY! Wow….. I’ve been listening to it on Audible like I did Wishes Fulfilled, and I just finished it this morning as I’m writing this. And I’ve been sending it to just about everyone I can think of. Audible lets you text or email a free copy to friends. The app is super convenient, too. I’m sure I’ll be writing about this particular book in much more detail soon, so let’s just give a little bit of background. It’s one of the more detailed and amazing near death experiences (NDEs) to date, coupled with being one of the most miraculous cancer comebacks. As in, a true medical/scientific miracle. From knocking on death’s door, body totally done, and actively dying, to slipping into a coma and experiencing the true magnificence of what she is (and you and me, too, right now!), to making a total comeback. And in record time, too. That might be the most inexplicable part to modern medical science. They kept testing her for cancer cells and she kept saying not to bother because it’s gone. And they were thinking the machines were broken since the cancer had left her body so quickly. And she had been full of tumors the size of lemons just a few weeks prior! The doctors said it was impossible that the cancer had left that fast, and other oncologists have since verified the medical records. The other cool thing is that she knew things she could not have known, like a conversation her husband had with a doctor while she was in a coma. But they were not in the same room, and they were out of earshot, and she even knew which doctor it was (there were many doctors that saw her). And there’s more that she knew as well. So for a skeptical type, this is very, very rich.

So how does this play into our discussion of what “God” might really mean? Speaking from my own journey, or course… We’ve gone from a being that’s separate from me that might or might not judge me, but for some reason I sure judge myself and feel fear and guilt regardless! And we’ve moved to “all that is” and “the creative source of the universe,” which is not separate from its creations. So it’s really the same as “all that is.” Remember, these are just words doing their best to point to meaning. And then we come to what Anita discovered and experienced: “And then I was overwhelmed by the realization that God isn’t a being, but a state of being… and I was now that state of being!” Are you starting to see – and perhaps feel – what a major shift this is? I can only speak from my experience, but it’s hard to explain how profound this has been for my self concept. For many, many years, I’ve believed consciously that we are not our body but rather something huge and awesome that animates it. Call it the soul or whatever. But unconsciously, I’ve totally believed the opposite! My body tells me all the time when I’m thinking I’m small. If I KNEW that I were infinite, eternal, and pure love, which is what Anita experienced, then I wouldn’t get triggered all the time. My buttons wouldn’t get pushed. In fact, I doubt there would even be any buttons to get pushed! We’ll be getting into this in far more detail in the future, because it’s just now coming into focus how my work is shifting. But here’s a summary for now: it’s all about what you truly believe yourself to be: big or small, soul/spirit or body, etc. – and everything else is merely an effect of that. Done. So we will be talking very specifically in future writings about what that looks like for us here on earth.

Well, that’s enough for now, folks. This represents the beginning of the next phase of the work that I’ll be doing. And if it’s a bit clunky, please cut me some slack! This stuff isn’t always easy to talk about, and you know that I’m always doing my best. And this is brand new for me, too. I’ll continue to get out of the way more and more and just let it come through. And what’s coming through me is equal in essence to what is inside of you right now. There are no levels; it’s just how much is coming through. Let that sink in! And that includes all the great ones of this time and before – they are not any better than you truly are right now. So take these words in and see if it’s perhaps good news regarding your concept of God. Perfect love with absolutely NO judgment, which we’ll be talking about soon, sure sounds like an upgrade… And if you find yourself feeling triggered right now or defending a version of God from a path you’ve been on, that’s fine, too! But if you get honest and don’t truly KNOW, then you might want to drop into “show me the money” attitude. And I highly, highly, highly recommend reading and/or listening to Dying To Be Me. It answers SO many questions. It’s all right there, clearly explained. And no beliefs, but rather experience. Let’s leave the world of beliefs behind. And it’s just her experience, but if you look into this type of thing, you’ll find lots of similarities in different people’s stories. And it’s generally very, very good news. Because it means you’re innocent, right now. Despite all the reasons you think you might be guilty. Also relax and give it some time. There’s no rush at all. Let things shake out a bit. Just “chop wood and carry water” for now, as I think the Buddhists have said. We’ll be talking much more about this, I’m sure. I’ve always thought it was going to be in another blog called A Deep Mind, but I’m starting to wonder now. I don’t really want two blogs anyway, because I have enough trouble keeping up with one while still maintaining my social life. And there’s only one truth, whatever it is. So we might as well talk about it in once place. Thanks for reading, and I send you love on your journey of discovering what you already are.