Mind-Blowing: Replace “Ego” With “Core Wound”

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Okay, folks, this is super cool and powerful and immediately helpful. And yes, I know I’ve been starting these posts out that way a lot lately… I don’t know what else to do, though, because the truth is that this new, fresh material IS super cool and powerful and immediately helpful! And trust me, it blows me away as much as it does you or anyone else. It occurred to me just yesterday, in fact, that the majority of my clients are on the same journey I am – this journey of endless acceptance and loving on ourselves instead of endless working on ourselves. And then they start to see how the universe has choreographed everything for their benefit in terms of soul growth. I mean, these sessions have been so amazing that it’s hard to put into words. And the client leaves and I feel so pumped up that I want to go tell someone how awesome it was… But there’s nobody to tell… So I just sit there and bask in that feeling for a bit and think about how amazing it would be if I could share this stuff with millions of people. Which is absolutely what I’m going to try to do. In due time…

In the meantime, the sessions and these posts will be enough. I guess I’m just excited now, because I’m really seeing the bigger picture of the human journey in my clients more and more, coming in not knowing what’s up and thinking they’re messed up and then becoming more loving with themselves. And seeing that the universe is doing it all on purpose to clear out their energy fields. And life becomes exciting, with a “bring it on” attitude instead of staying in fear and trying to control life (which can’t be controlled). I am humbled. Because at that point, the sessions are about “How good can life get?” rather than “This sucks, get me out of here!” So now we’re laughing and asking, “What’s that smart and sneaky universe going to do next?” And I have a front row seat with so many folks. And you have a front row with me, and many of them, through this blog! Anyway, back to the story. I guess that had to come out first, though.

In short, pay the $85 and get the livestream of Matt Kahn’s six-city book tour. Just do it. You can watch or listen anytime you want, and as far as I know there’s no expiration date. I sure hope not, anyway, because this material is rich, very rich. It’s a major event for the planet, in fact, the beginning of a huge movement that’s really starting to take off. It’s a Friday night and a full Saturday in six cities, once a month for six months. He’s done one so far, in Vancouver a month ago, and the second one started last night and continues today. But again, you don’t have to tune in live. Although that would be cool… I’m be out of town this weekend, so I’ll watch it later. I just finished the first weekend, in fact, not long ago. And that’s what this post is about.

I was laughing because as he does, he took a left turn that I didn’t know existed about a half hour into the first one, and the $85 had already paid for itself. The title of the weekend was “Healing Your Core Wound.” That sounds great to me, so let’s do it. And he revealed that he didn’t even know what the talk would be about until lunch that day. What? It just started downloading in. He channeled the titles of each weekend many months ago, but that’s all the universe told him. So the material for the talk itself started pouring in a few hours before the Friday night talk that began it all. And what poured in? This: replace the word “ego” with “core wound.” Bam.

Think about it for a minute… How do you feel when you hear or think about the word “ego?” For most people, it’s definitely not good, not a warm fuzzy. It sounds like an enemy, something we must kill. Definitely something to stay away from. Something that could contaminate you. Something to defeat. Something to be wary of. Something that you sure hope people don’t notice in you! So there’s instant judgment, whether conscious or not.

Now replace that with “core wound.” Because the truth is, the journey of a soul incarnating in a body almost always at some point includes a deep feeling of unwantedness on some level, big or small. Some flavor of insecurity or pain. That’s all “core wound” refers to. And if someone is acting out not because their “ego” is triggered but because their “core wound” is triggered or inflamed, don’t you view them differently? Of course they’re acting out – their woundedness is triggered! How could they not act out right now? And they probably don’t even know it. So what’s the response to someone that’s wounded? To give them love or to give them space, but not to judge them. And you definitely might need to give them space; in fact, don’t let anyone mistreat you. But whatever you decide to do, odds are you’ll view them much differently.

The same holds true for yourself. When you see that your “core wound” is triggered or inflamed, you’ll probably view yourself with more love, more compassion. You might ask what you truly need in that moment. When we’re looking at our ego instead, we can come from judgment and disdain and from being sick and tired of it, wishing it would just go away. But if we’re triggered, we need more love, not less. Enter “core wound.” You have sort of an “awww…” feeling, like there’s a wounded puppy or something. Let’s take care of the puppy, then.

Also look at it like this. We can have thoughts or statements like “He’s such a jerk” or “She’s such a bitch.” “He’s such a know it all” or “She’s such a back-stabber.” “They’re so crazy.” And we can replace them all with, “He’s so wounded,” “She’s so wounded,” or “They’re so wounded.” Doesn’t that feel different? And it’s more accurate, a deeper and truer way of seeing things. And again, this doesn’t mean you have to hang out with them! That’s not what it’s about; it’s about how you see them. And the less judgment you’re in, the better YOU will feel. Great stuff.

So there you go, folks, play with that for a while. I’m sure the universe will give you plenty of chances, in fact, with yourself and with others. It could even be someone that works at a store or a restaurant that seems to be in a bad mood. They’re wounded. Isn’t that powerful? And maybe you can say something nice out of nowhere to turn their day around. So cool.

Back to that first livestream, the Friday night session was utterly ridiculous. It was super powerful and super masculine. In fact, I was wondering if it was going to freak some people out! He did a very deep dive into the core of things, plus having them (us) tell the universe to bring it on, that we’re ready. I’ve noticed that he often starts by confusing the audience, too. He did this by putting the Law of Attraction to bed for good. The reason is that there’s so much outdated stuff out there that people are believing, and that has to be cleared first. Then there’s space to put the updated, truer stuff in. So that’s what happened in the Saturday morning session. It was more loving and more feminine for sure.

Then the rest was hilarious. The third and final session after lunch was supposed to be a Q&A, which he’s well known for because it’s all totally channeled and intuitive. But first he was guided to do a sort of “deconstruction,” in which he slows down and leads them directly into an experience of what’s called 5D consciousness, or unity consciousness. And in this space, the same questions pretty much don’t exist! So crazy. So let’s do a Q&A. But first, let me lead you to a place where there are no questions. I love this guy! Then he did take a few questions, and it’s just amazing to watch how they unfold. I had a big emotional reaction to the final one, in fact. It just rises up seemingly out of nowhere. “Oh, hello! Apparently I resonate with this one.”

There’s more to be written about from this first weekend, I’m sure, so stay tuned. In the meantime, make the modest investment if it resonates. I had to go ahead and share the replacement of “ego” with “core wound,” though, because it shifts us from judgment to love just like that. So play with that and have fun! And as always, I’m here to help if I can.

Everything Is Here To Help You: Book Preview!

Posted Posted in Books/Resources, Spirituality/Religion

First of all, this is not my book, not yet anyway. And hey, I totally wish it were! In due time, for sure… I was contacted not long ago my someone that Matt Kahn (or Hay House) hired to promote Matt’s upcoming book, Everything Is Here To Help You. She found my blog and sent an advance copy so I could read it and write a review here. It comes out in early June, and in short, buy it!! That’s a no brainer. I mean, it’s a book, and books cost like fifteen bucks. And any nugget you’ll get is worth WAY more than that. Because it just takes one nugget to change your life. And let’s face it, this book is filled with them…

It hit me a few months ago that my one-two punch for a while now has been loving what arises plus understanding that the universe is always moving us towards our best self. So when we’re triggered, we train ourselves to instantly ask, “How is this here to help me?” That’s the essential shift from the ego’s eyes to the soul’s. “Apparently the universe thinks this has an evolutionary benefit for me… I wonder what it might be?” And we always love the part of us that’s in any pain while this process is happening. Life is a different ballgame when you’re doing this, and it’s my mission to spread the good news!

So it was cool to learn that Matt’s second book was about precisely this second part of our one-two punch. And obviously I was quite honored to receive an advance copy. He had nothing to do with it, but I definitely told him when I saw him at his retreat last month. I said, “I’m spreading your stuff, bro! And I’m having a ball doing it.” Who wouldn’t like hearing that? I know I sure would.

Before we get down to business, let me give you the information for the live stream of his upcoming book tour, because you can see for yourself how amazing these intuitive talks are. And the price is really low considering how much value you’ll get. It’s a series of 6 weekends, a Friday night talk and all day Saturday, once a month starting in June. Sign up here. Highly recommended. And there’s a nice little two-minute sample video here. I think it’s $10 for a Friday night, $20 for a Friday night and Saturday, or $85 for all six weekends. If you resonate with his stuff or my stuff at all, that’s a very wise investment. Trust me on that! These talks will shake you up into a whole new reality. Okay, here we go…

First of all, the book is about exactly what the title says: everything is here to help you. Literally everything. As I’ve said before, your highest potential as an expression of divinity in form is like a magnificent work of art. The universe knows exactly what it looks like, and it knows exactly how to get you there. And that path is the things that are happening in your life right now. Right now. Bam! So there’s no pressure on you to “figure it out.” Rather, you “feel it out.” That has a nice ring to it… And you can’t make a wrong move, because the universe can do some auto-correction anytime it wants. And the universe is so smart that it’ll have you learn and grow even more along the way. So that’s the basic idea.

He goes into so much detail, though. This really is a book to be read again and again, highlighting and underlining and dog-earing certain pages and sections. You’ll use it as a life-long reference. You can pick it up years later and the “you” that’s reading it will be such a different and transformed “you,” that you’ll get things that were there all along but that you just weren’t ready to even notice. It’s so cool how that works, and that’ll happen a lot with this book. One sentence you weren’t ready for now will pop out and change your life when you pick it up again in like three years. So this one is a keeper.

“In this new paradigm, our spiritual journey requires us to evolve from the soul’s point of view. This is important, so the ego doesn’t get reinvented with a more spiritually themed persona.” That was soooo me, still getting over that… (but so innocent and well-intentioned). As I’ve said before, the old paradigm, for which we can be very thankful but also which has come to the end of its potential (for anyone that would be reading this!), is really about the ego being in charge of the awakening journey. So it’s about becoming a spiritual ego as it tries to awaken itself, which is like a caterpillar trying to become a butterfly while still being a really awesome and shiny caterpillar. Not possible. But still, it’s just a stage that we all go through, and we are now at a new stage.

He talks about ending the inner war we all experience, of course using love and compassion and ditching all the judgment that’s been around for so long. He talks about the specific evolutionary benefits of adversity, enemies, loss, fear, anger, judgment, overthinking, sadness, disappointment, jealousy, and resentment. Read that list again… Learning benefits of even one or two of those is worth fifteen bucks!

He talks about balancing the masculine and feminine energies. He talks about the foundations of self-love. He talks about the stages of surrender. He talks about the essence of true forgiveness. He talks about surrendering blame for good and why. “From the soul’s point of view, people, places, and things, are costumes that Source wears, only playing the exact role to help our light come out of hiding. When lost in ego, life is a stressful pursuit of seeking pleasure to avoid the burden of pain. As this occurs, each character is judged by the actions that have been orchestrated on a level of reality beyond the notion of individual choice.”

That last part is super powerful to me: “… orchestrated on a level of reality beyond the notion of individual choice…” He’s referring to the intelligent and loving universe that’s in charge, and we learn to trust it more and more. It just takes time and gentle practice. I know that the universe can seem like a jerk that hates us at first, though – I totally get that! Just hang in there and stay with it. I see it all the time with my clients. When we sort of “turn the corner,” that’s when life gets super amazing and no longer such a pain in the ass. Back to the book…

He talks about emotion, and shifting from the ego’s view of pleasure versus pain to the soul’s view of emotion as an opportunity to love more deeply (i.e. when you’re in pain of any kind, love the part of yourself that’s in pain even more than you ever have). The other thing is the massive clearing that’s happening when we’re feeling emotion: “… the soul steps forward to experience each sensation in a way that honors and respects the emotional debris purged out of our energy fields. Negative feelings offer us an opportunity to clear out layers of conditioning that we have carried for lifetimes. Meanwhile, the arising of positive emotions confirms the activation of dormant gifts provided from the past.” This is huge, folks! It’s a crucial part of what we’re learning. He has us unlink our feelings from the present person or situation that triggered us. Why? Because it was all orchestrated for the purpose of clearing our energy fields of the emotional debris from the past. Yes, that means you can actually say “thank you” to whoever triggers you… That’s a level that I’m finally playing with. Playing with… This is big stuff, folks. So no pressure on me or you or anyone else. It’s pretty Jedi, though. I mean, it’s ridiculous. I’m so psyched about this whole path. I had NO idea we’d be here when I got into this years ago. Back to the book…

He talks about fulfilling our mission of coming to this planet to help clear it of all the emotional density. And that’s a huge mission! For real. Another way to look at the old paradigm versus the new is a shift from ME to WE. This is huge, because all the stuff you go through starts to feel big and important and even noble. Because it is. “In essence, what we are healing in ourselves, we are helping to transform in all. Equally so, the layers of emotional debris we’ve already healed become the exact themes that others can transform when around us.” Read that again, because it’s so important and so cool…

He talks about the four signs of transformation: frustration, confusion, boredom, and loneliness. Wait, those are actually good signs?? He talks about a new look at karma. He talks about empaths. Fifteen bucks, people?? Hahaha! And throughout the book, he gives powerful questions to slow down and guide us into a deeper experience of understanding. Then there’s a whole section called, “Clearings, Activations, and Integrations.” By the way, the price of the book is worth it just to see if these have any effect on your life. Just read them or speak them out loud (might be more powerful that way) and see what happens. What do you have to lose? Fifteen bucks… 

Then he talks more about why we are here: “… we are here on this planet to further our angelic training as an awakening soul in physical form. We were placed in a family structure during our earliest and most impressionable years of development as a microcosmic model of the collective consciousness that we incarnated to help shift.” Read that last part again, and it might help to make sense of the family situation you grew up in, as well as the themes of your life and your journey as you’ve grown older. This alone is VERY valuable. None of it has been an accident, folks. And if you’ve always felt like an alien in your family (like so many of my clients), there’s a reason. You’re actually the strong one, you’re the evolved one, and you came to heal and clear their stuff. Wow. And now you have a guide to help you grow into what you already are. And of course that’s what A Clean Mind is all about, too. So you are very supported in this mission.

Then he talks for many pages about what life is like when everything is viewed as a gift. There’s just so much. We could go on, but I think we’ve covered enough. Again, the key is that a book that might have any bit of value at all is worth the price. And this one clearly does. So do it! The shift from seeing through the ego’s eyes of judging everything to the soul’s eyes of seeing the purposeful evolutionary benefit is huge, and it’ll change your life. Because it’ll totally change how you relate to life. Life is already going to happen, so it’s all about how you relate to it; that’s the shift. We’ve been making that exact shift here at A Clean Mind for a while now, and this book and his upcoming book tour are chances for us to deepen this shift a ton. I highly, highly recommend purchasing the live stream and checking it out!! Do it. Just watch the little sample video and see if your body says “yes.” And you can pre-order the book here. All good either way, I’m just here to support you in any way that I can. And I’m passing on some stuff that might be helpful for your journey; that’s a big part of what I do. And if you’re anything like me, it might blow up your past and current journey and put you in a totally new existence before you even know what happened. So wild… It’s always my honor and joy to share, and I send so much love to you. And as always, I’m here to help if I can.

New Talk: Welcome To The New Spirituality!

Posted Posted in My Stories, Spirituality/Religion

I had the best time Wednesday night giving a new talk called “Welcome To The New Spirituality!” It was at a lovely place in Fairhope, AL called From The Center. And I say this a lot, but it’s just such an honor and a massive joy to share this way of living in which we learn to be our own best friend instead of a critic or enemy. It’s called loving what arises, and it’s the fastest way that I know of to heal the heart. And then we combine that with learning to flow with life, which already has a customized plan for our most efficient growth into the best version of ourselves we can possibly be. Read that again… So I’m writing here to summarize what we talked about as well as to provide links for some of the things that I mentioned. And I thought that instead of emailing it to my new friends that were there, why not post it here? So buckle up, because it’s pretty long. But it covers everything, and it’ll be a great resource or road map that’ll be there to serve you at anytime. It’s also been a great exercise for me to write this out, since I want to start getting this in compact forms like books, apps, and online products. It’s time to blast out 5D!

This is pretty much the same talk that I’m going to start giving all around Pensacola, and then I hope to branch out from there. I have two scheduled already, at Wild Lemon and at Breathe Yoga, and I’ll be giving more information on those as they draw near. Also I have contacts all over the southeast, and it’s a catchy title, and Facebook works wonders for getting people there! It’s interesting how my being so social all my life is looking like it’ll come into play to help spread a ton of light all these years later. That darn universe, so smart… Also, this talk can be de-woowoo-ified by calling it something like Peace Is Actually Here Now!, which will be more appropriate for certain venues and audiences. Hey, not everyone has to be into 5D! But the core of it all, loving what arises, is for everyone. That plus knowing that the universe is always helping us grow. That’s our one-two punch.

Now onto the talk… I started by saying let’s all just relax and breathe and be in “receiver mode.” Let what wants to sink in sink in. It’s no different than sitting and watching a movie and just taking it in, as opposed to trying to understand and “get it” and figure things out. If that happens naturally, then great. Otherwise, just breathe. Breathe and be dumb! Breathe and drool. Because the truth is that you end up so much smarter that way…

Also know that confusion is often a good thing when it comes to deep stuff like this. It means the small mind is getting blown, and that’s exactly what we want. Because a bigger and better mind is right there, ready to take its place. I’ve been calling that your “wisdom” all these years, and “plain old common sense” will do, too. It’s the quieter voice that’s always there. And let’s face it, it’s smarter… I also said that since the group had varying backgrounds and degrees of woowoo, if something doesn’t feel right or doesn’t make sense then all good, it’s simply a sign to breathe and relax. Wait for the next thing, no big deal. A big part of the talk is about how we’re all EXACTLY how we’re supposed to be, right now! Because the universe is so smart that if it wanted us to be “further along” then we already would be… So it’s literally all good.

With the stage set, we jumped right in with the question, “Who are we?” And the answer… angels in training! Okay, that sounds pretty good. Next up was, “Why are we here?” To help spruce this place up. To come down to help raise the vibration of an entire planet. That’s right, an entire freaking planet. To come and heal this place for the benefit of all. And yes, it’s a very big deal! That’s why the idea of judging ourselves and beating ourselves up is utterly ridiculous. In fact, we’re the LAST people that deserve that. It’s like we were looking down at earth and thinking, “Wow, it’s such a beautiful and lovely planet… But, umm, what the hell is up with those humans?? They fight with each other and do mean things. You know what, let’s hop into some bodies and go down there and fix it! Who’s with me?” And… I’m not sure how many answered the call, maybe just those of us that were crazy enough to do it. And I am honored to be one of those crazies! And now we’re banding together and learning what we actually are. And after a while it feels really, really good.

Then we talked about how we heal and transform a planet. The answer is really cool: we do it by hopping into a body and healing and transforming that one body, that one individual, that one person. You. You transform yourself. And by the principle of oneness or unity consciousness (which is what 5D means), any and all individual healing goes out to the collective. This path is very “divinely selfish,” and because of unity consciousness that means it’s actually very self-less. That’s oneness in action, folks, very cool. So if you’re doing anything better than your parents or those that came before you were able to do, then you’re actually healing and clearing it out of the whole lineage. You’re doing what those that came before you were not able to do, because you can! And that’s why you’re here. And yes, that’s means you’re a badass, and it’s okay to own that and be proud of it…

So you don’t have to be a yoga or meditation master or have the shiniest chakras (although that’s all perfectly good and awesome, for real). That’s not the focus of the new paradigm, though; it can be an effect, but it’s certainly not the cause (and there’s great confusion around this on the spiritual path as we transition from 4D to 5D, and this confusion causes many people to question themselves and beat themselves up). Do you know how many of my clients, for instance, were abused by a parent or parents? And while not condoning it, they can see clearly that their parents were just not able to act in any other way. They also see that their grandparents did it to their parents and so on, up the chain. And I ask them if they’ve ever abused their children. Do you know what they say? “No way, never! I told myself a long time ago that I’d NEVER do that. There’s just no way that that I could, no way. It’s not even possible.” And I point out, often with a tear in my eye, the bigness of what they’ve actually done. They’ve done their part to clear abuse out of their lineage and off the planet. And I say, “Thank you!” Because again, it’s a very big deal. So that’s how we transform a planet, by transforming ourselves.

So we’ve talked about how we’re angels in training that incarnated to raise the vibration of a planet, and we’re transforming the collective by healing and transforming ourselves. Next is, who’s running the show? Why, it’s the universe! Or God or Source, you get the idea. As I said above, it already knows the most efficient path for how we can become the most amazing versions of ourselves. This means lots of light or soul inhabits the body, so our energy fields have to be cleared of all the emotional debris from the past. This is huge, because it explains why we feel crappy sometimes (trust me, it doesn’t last forever). The universe triggers us intentionally as an opportunity to heal the past. Because when we’re emotionally triggered, it’s all about the past and not whatever has triggered us. The present trigger is actually just a pawn of the universe. Now, don’t stay in an abusive relationship or that type of unhealthy situation, of course; that’s just common sense. But in general, we’re triggered to give us an opportunity to clear out the old junk we’re carrying to make room for more light to move in. And after a while, there’s nothing left to be triggered. The same things happen that used to cause a visceral response, and that feeling just isn’t there in our body anymore, or it’s a lot less. And in this way, we’re shaped by the universe into an exquisite work of art, one more beautiful than we could ever imagine. The triggers are what buff you out and shine you up into a brilliant, radiant light. And that’s why we say, “Universe, have no mercy on me!” And yes, that’s pretty hardcore. I’ve been doing it, though, and so far it rules!

Another way to phrase this is that everything is here to help you. And you know what? That’s actually the title of Matt’s second book! What a coincidence… It comes out in June, and I was given an advance copy by a promo person that found my blog, so I’ll be writing a review very soon. But in short, it’s awesome! When we’re always asking, “How is this here to help me?” then we’re seeing life through the soul’s eyes and not the ego’s. Can you feel the difference as you read that, how major this is?? And as we make this shift, life starts to become really magical and exciting rather than super stressful and scary. This is what I wrote about in the post called The Essential Shift (To The Blame-Free Zone).

NOTE: This will be in my post about the new book, but I might as well go ahead and include it here since some of you may be ready. You can pre-order it from Hay House here, and if you do there are some freebbonus gifts. Back to the talk…

We also talked about “hand over your burdens,” which I learned from the retreat that I was just at. It’s in the notes from Day 3, afternoon section. It’s really cool, getting the power of the entire universe involved in helping us handle difficult things in the best possible ways. Hand them over one by one and watch what happens. You’re not ignoring them; you’re just admitting that you need some help. And the universe says, “Thank you, I’ve been waiting for you to ask. Let’s take care of this in an efficient way that benefits all.” Note that you’re also asking, “How is this here to help me?” So you’re making sure to learn whatever it is that the universe wants you to learn; that’s part of the deal.

We also talked about some of the differences between the old spiritual paradigm and this new one (which arrived in full at the big eclipse last August, I believe). The old way, and I’ve written about this before, is very masculine. We’re trying to enlighten ourselves by trying hard and working and doing it right and being in charge and seeking and all of that sort of thing. We’re constantly trying to fix a problem. We’re always working on ourselves, and we’re putting ourselves under a spiritual microscope while we’re doing it. We’re micromanaging our every feeling, thought, action, and intention. Sound familiar? The new paradigm is much more feminine, as we embrace the awakened consciousness that we already are, and we let the universe guide us into embodying it. The universe is in charge, not our ego. Which brings me to the next point of differentiation… if you really look at the old paradigm, the ego is totally in charge! And it’s literally impossible for it to awaken itself. That’s like a caterpillar trying to change into a butterfly while still being a caterpillar. Not. Gonna. Happen. So the new paradigm puts the soul fully in charge, and we do this by always asking, “How is this here to help me?” Gone is the blame and judgment that’s SO rampant in the old way (even though it can be subtle). I sure experienced my fair share of that… Who, me? Yep, a freaking ton. I have so much gratitude because this feels SO much better.

We talked somewhere along the line about being empathic or energetically sensitive, which Matt does the best job of anyone I know. He’s as empathic as it gets, and he’s mastered it. Much of the stuff on sensitives that I’ve seen really treats us like energetic wimps, even though it can be subtle. This stuff helps you see that you’re actually the strong one; you’re a badass! Afraid of nothing. In fact, darkness is afraid of you. Read that again! The big picture is this – you are the light that’s always clearing stuff; that’s just what the energy field of an empath does, and there’s no turning it off. So you’re this badass ball of light that’s clearing lower vibrational stuff all the time, wherever you go. So here’s the big question… Do you identify with the light that’s clearing stuff, or do you identify with the stuff that’s being cleared? Since nobody ever told you this (because we’re in a transitional time and it’s so new), you’ve probably been identifying with the sludge. No more. And we talked about how when you feel yourself shrinking or cowering, you can actually breathe IN that stuff and breathe out light and blessings for the planet. You’re naturally an energetic converter or transmuter, raising low stuff to step it up in vibration. What?? That’s right… Because you are the one that sends it home. I know this is different… Also send me your email (anyone) and I’ll put you on the huge Dropbox folder I made with lots of extra mind-blowing talks by Matt. Several of them explain exactly this. Just read the text file I put in there called READ THIS! and it explains the tracks. These are the ones I was listening to and my head exploded, usually within the first ten minutes. And I was thinking, “I have to share this with people!!” So I created this Dropbox folder.

We closed with two cool little experiences, some folks with eyes open and some with eyes closed. First, we relaxed into our breath and asked what this moment would be like if we weren’t anticipating anything? Just this moment, not forever. What if it were fine to want stuff, but that all takes time to unfold. Is peace actually already here now? What if we didn’t tie our peace to having whatever it is that we want to be different? Maybe those changes are on their way, but it takes time for things to unfold; that’s reality. So maybe we can have peace in the meantime. Maybe peace is actually here all along, sitting in the background as the space in which all other states come and go. Hmmm… And it felt really awesome. We might’ve also slipped in a super powerful one here, and that’s asking what if how I am now is exactly how I’m supposed to be, right now in this moment? That includes all perceived faults, imperfections, etc. What if this is EXACTLY how I’m supposed to be now?? How do you know it’s not? After all, that’s a really big assumption. So cool…

Then the final thing got a bit weirder. But it’s so cool. It’s the coolest thing to me now, in fact, and it comes from the track in the Dropbox called Unobjectified Feeling. And it’s hilarious, too – you really have to listen to how he does it. The audience can only laugh because he’s totally moved their minds out of the way. Gone. Again, we had some with eyes open and some with eyes closed. And we pondered what life would be like if we didn’t consider ourselves to be a person with a name, a past, tendencies, etc. What if we were just the breath, sitting in a chair and breathing now? Our name is breath, our occupation is breath, our age is breath. We simply go through life breathing. And as experiences come, we handle them. And we keep breathing and we move on. The experiences are what they are without being some big thing with a story and a bunch of meaning. We handle it as best we can, and we move on. And the consensus was pretty much that this would be a huge upgrade! Life would be so much simpler. We’d feel way better, and we’d handle situations way better, too. Anyway, we might talk about this more in future posts. Matt says “me” is M.E. = My Experience. So we breathe and we have experiences. And we handle them. No judgment about what they mean. Whoa. Listen to that track and then tell me how you feel. It’s so crazy that the audience can only laugh. Because their minds are all blown. In fact, he has them look for their mind. Can’t find one! He has them look for their past. Can’t find it! So funny… If you want to try right now, close your eyes and try to find your mind or your past. In fact, find who or where you are while you’re at it. There’s just space. Awesome.

I also mentioned some things I’ve written about before, like the Energetic Vacuum Cleaner, How To Spill A Smoothie, Women Rising Up!, and The Slow Way Is The Fast Way. You can always click Archives to see all the posts, since there are so many of them. Know, though, that my big shift with the “loving what arises” stuff was last summer (July 2017). So as things get earlier than that, there’s lots of great stuff but I’ve definitely shifted a ton. So keep that in mind. But still, there should be lots that can be helpful. It’s been a wild journey! And fast, too, all things considered…

Finally, here are some resources about Matt Kahn. Send me your email (again, anyone) if you want the tracks in the Dropbox folder. Highly recommended… His YouTube channel is amazing, and they’ve already posted a video from the last day of the retreat that I was at two weeks ago. That video is called The Power Of Self Responsibility. His first book is Whatever Arises, Love That, and that’s the foundation for everything, an entire book about it. And the second book, Everything Is Here To Help You, comes out in June. As I said above, I was given an advance copy to review and it’s pretty awesome. These two concepts are literally how I work with my clients everyday. And of course myself! That’s always where it all starts, it has to be. An overview of how he works comes from my initial impressions from the first retreat of his that I went to back in January, here. I’d definitely check that out for some background. And all my notes are posted after that, very interesting. Then my impressions from this second retreat are here, and the notes follow. Finally, he’s doing a book tour with Hay House over the next six months, and you can live stream it for super cheap. It’s done on his website, right at the top. If you want a taste, go here and watch the little two minute intro video and you’ll see why I love this guy! It’s very, very potent stuff.

So enjoy! And never hesitate to reach out if I can help in any way. Again, it’s an honor and a pleasure to connect with you, and it’s time to let the world know that there’s a new way. There’s nothing wrong with the old way except that it’s outdated now. It’s old and long and slow and more painful. We can heal and grow faster now than ever before, allowing life to do what it wants to us to allow our highest potential to emerge. And the whole thing is honestly pretty ridiculous (that’s a really good word to me, by the way). We have to allow life to trigger us to clear out our emotional bodies, though, but when you get the hang of it it gets better and better. And you’ll even start to say, “No mercy, bring it on.” Then you’ll know you really are one of the crazies that came down here to raise the vibration of a planet. And it’s high time we get the band back together. Until the next time, I wish you all the best. And as always, let me know if I can help.

Notes: Matt Kahn Retreat, Days 4 & 5

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Hello again. These are my final notes from Matt Kahn’s 5-day Standing For Love retreat (they’ll have the audio for sale in July). It was at the World Forestry Center in lovely Portland, OR on April 25-29, 2018. You can read my general, mind-blown impressions here. Because it was freaking insane!!! Okay, I had to get that out of my system… But seriously, it was craaaazy!!! I guess there was a bit more…

His retreats (and everything he does) always unfold intuitively, based on what the universe deems necessary for that situation at that time. It’s so cool to watch because it just happens, it just comes through. He said that this retreat ended up having a theme for each day. Day four was Saturday, and the theme was Relationships. That was a big day for everyone… The planet needs healing around this so much, so it packed quite a massive charge. And day five was Sunday, a shorter day, and the theme was Self-Responsibility. Which was perfectly appropriate for releasing us back into the wild as we set out to take our brand new selves back home!

Saturday 4/28/18 am (Relationship Day)

We had an amazing session! We did these huge repeat-after-me group clearings with the men first and then the women and then both. HUGE releases for so many people. Lots of emotion running through many of the attendees. Like, primal releases and sobs. For a long time. The men went first to ask the women for forgiveness for all the atrocities and abuses of power, etc. over the centuries. And the woman said yes. And I forgot what the women’s was, to which the men said yes. I mean, hey, I had enough on my plate with our own stuff! But whatever it was, I wholeheartedly agreed. And then altogether, men and women, the gist was that we’re healing everything from the past that’s gender-related and moving into a whole, healed, balanced future. With the men embracing the feminine within and the women embracing the masculine within (like my post from a free years ago, Women Rising Up!). Anyway, this was a major group healing.

NOTE: when I’m saying “men” and “women,” it’s really referring to masculine and feminine energies. So it could be in a body of any variety. It’s the energy, not the body. Back to the notes…

For all of us, all the time, act with integrity no matter what. I’m the only one that has to be polite, and no mercy for me. 

To another person, or to your inner child, say, “How may I serve you?” The inner child is actually your soul or “higher self,” which is the whole freaking universe – dressed up as a baby! So when we ask it “How may I serve you?”, the universe sees a master. And then the universe says to us, “How may I serve YOU?” 

Loss is only initiation for more gain. “What am I being prepared to gain?” 

Saturday 4/28/18 afternoon (Relationship Day)

The talked a lot about the tendency and need to be right. The price of being right is that the other person feels unsafe. It’s all about the right to be seen versus the need to be right.

You can even vent without the need for the other person to agree. You just “let it out.” And their job is to literally just stand there. And then you’re done and you move on and have a great day. They don’t have to agree or have any opinion whatsoever. It’s not their stuff, anyway, so let’s let them off the hook. There’s much more peace in a relationship this way. 

When you don’t need to be right, those that do need to be right don’t bother you. If you just let them be right, it’s the end of the dance (even though they’re never really going to be satisfied with anything you say or do).

People can only waste your time when you don’t choose to use it to grow (remember to use the forgiveness process for when you’re triggered).

Talking about bodily illness and symptoms… “May I change my relationship with it?” Look at it as an opportunity. Try to have a different experience with it. What is it inviting me to do or see or change? 

Sunday 4/29/18 am (Self-Responsibility Day)

NOTE: Here’s the link to a video of 90 minutes of this morning session, so you can watch it for yourself! And he goes through the forgiveness process called “Send it Back” several times.

Lots of talk about boundaries… Check in with yourself before saying yes! And you don’t need anybody else’s approval. Only do things for others if you want to AND if you also have it in the tank to give. 

Be caring for others, not their caretaker. The difference is that your peace doesn’t hinge on their healing. That’s their journey. 

The Mirror Teaching 2.0 (for empaths): The good in others mirrors the light of your soul. Their conditioning that doesn’t trigger you is what you’ve healed. If it triggers you, you’re still healing it. 

Narcissists come from emotional neglect. Most people have a tendency to be self-absorbed at some point, to varying degrees, as opposed to self-aware or self-responsible. A narcissist has the inability to consider other people.

Let It Go 2.0 (for empaths): “My feelings matter.” 

NOTE: this is what I was talking about in my recent post about honesty, and especially the follow-up called More Honesty: Don’t Let It Go

When someone triggers you, they’re showing you there’s something in you that’s ready to be healed. So it’s a good thing; embrace it! 

Again, here’s the trigger (forgiveness) process. You’re triggered. How do I feel? Look back to whoever made you feel that way the first time or the most. “I forgive you, and I send it back as blessings for your journey ahead.” Then to the person that triggered you, “Thank you for triggering me” (obviously this can be said silently). Also the very relaxed form of sitting with ourselves that we did Thursday night is great for doing this, as well as for self-awareness and self-responsibility in general. 

Triggered always means there’s another layer that’s ready to be healed. And this process clears our whole lineage and also clears some density in the one that triggered us, too (because oneness or unity consciousness is here!). 

A Christ says, “God, if there’s anything in me that needs to be buffed out, then trigger me now!” And life can have anyone do it, because it’s not about them, it’s all about healing the past. Plus, it’s always Source (God, the Universe) dressed up as a person anyway. 

Communicate your needs, don’t share your blames. Set the person up for success. Rather than an “I statement,” for example, at least have another suggestion. And own your own stuff. Like, “Hey that triggered me and I know it’s my stuff, and I’m working on it. But if you can communicate with me in this way instead of that way it’d be great.” And of course we’re always doing the trigger process to clear the past as well. 

If the feeling (or some of it) stays after doing the forgiveness process, the sidebar to the process is sitting with the feeling. It’s the parent sitting with the child to heal the neglect it’s experienced. Be the softness around the emotion that says “It’s okay” and “I’m here with you.” And if it replies that it’s not okay, say, “Then it’s not okay, but I’m here with you.” It’s a memory, so it only knows the past (which was not okay). But we’re the observer, so we know the present (i.e. that we’re okay now). It’s the innocence of the memory sitting with the parent (the observer). And this is how the memory is healed. 

Like an expectant mother sits with a hand on her belly, we’re sitting in excitement waiting for a moment of transformation to be birthed. Waiting for a new, expanded consciousness to be birthed. 

This is a big deal! We’re the cosmic liberator, because when we do what those before us – generation after generation – couldn’t do (The Process), we’re healing all of them. By clearing our emotional cellular body. None of it is ours; we came here to heal the collective, and it just looks like we’re each doing it in one body. It’s a very big deal! 

Now we know how to be around other humans! We know the rules of engagement. We have the right to make boundaries. And we clear stuff whenever it arises (the radical forgiveness process) instead of judging and blaming. The Cosmic Liberators. “Free people free people.” Wow! 

Sunday 4/29/18 afternoon (Self-Responsibility Day)

After an experience like this, what else can you say????? WOW! I’ll be back at the next one in October, can’t wait. And I can’t wait to go back home in the meantime, too, because it’s time to live and deepen this awakened consciousness and shine more and more light.

Notes: Matt Kahn Retreat, Day 3

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Hello, You. These are my notes from Matt Kahn’s 5-day Standing For Love retreat. It was at the World Forestry Center in lovely Portland, OR on April 25-29, 2018. You can read my general, mind-blown impressions here. Because it was freaking insane!!! Okay, I had to get that out of my system… But seriously, it was craaaazy!!! I guess there was a bit more…

His retreats (and everything he does) always unfold intuitively, based on what the universe deems necessary for that situation at that time. It’s so cool to watch because it just happens, it just comes through. He said that this retreat ended up having a theme for each day. Day three was Friday, and the theme was Oneness. Enough said…

Friday 4/27/18 am (Oneness Day)

Oneness is about bringing things into harmony. It’s about bringing twos into ones. 

When rooted in ego, the mind tells the heart how to feel. When rooted in soul, the heart tells the mind how to see, believe, and think. 

What we’re about to talk about is very empowering, how everything is an opportunity for growth. 

For the most part, our threats are behind us. This is because we’re more evolved now and can use everything for growth (using the forgiveness process from yesterday). So when we feel threatened (i.e. triggered), we ask if it’s a true threat. And of course it’s almost always not. If not, it’s a chance to turn to the past to reclaim a part of ourselves, send stuff back (others’ old feelings/energies), forgive, and clear all lineages and the collective. Bam! 

Fear, or the ego, asks what the trigger tells us about the present. The soul asks what in the past needs clearing. Turn away from nothing! It’s all here to help you. This is huge!!

Friday 4/27/18 afternoon (Oneness Day)

Enjoyment comes when we’re not waiting for other things to happen. So ask, “What am I waiting for?” Stop waiting! Including for your biggest dreams and goals. 

The steps for being happy: 

1. Admit you don’t know how. When you do this, you open up to the universal, your higher soul, and your angels and guides to help. They’re waiting! 

2. Stop doing the things you used to do that didn’t make you happy. This opens space for something fresh and new. 

Failure is an opportunity to step out of personal will and into the will of the universe to do it through you. 

Hand over your burdens. Your gifts are yours to embrace; your burdens are not yours to resolve. Life gave them to you (burdens) so you can give them back. Huge! In this way, we become the space through which burdens are handled better than we could ever handle them on our own. It’s like the nucleus of the atom (personal self) surrenders so that the power of the whole atom can be used. Also, trying to do everything by ourselves negates unity consciousness. This is major!! We’ve been trying to do everything by ourselves for so long and often times staying stuck. 

We also talked about light and dark. Our job is to be totally anchored and grounded in the light. 

Friday 4/27/18 pm (Oneness Day)

Tonight is about not knowing and getting cool with the unknown. When knowing drops in, that’s great. Otherwise just keep on rolling without needing to know anything. What’s it like to not need to know? Awesome! Amazing. Freeing. 

So what’s it like to not need to know anything about yourself? You’re the one you know the most about, and you’re also the one with whom you have the biggest problem. 

A problem is based on what we know. But what we know is all imagination! Because knowing is based on things that come and go in time; that’s how we draw our conclusions. And anything that’s come has already gone. So we’re basing all that we know on stuff that’s not even here! 

Just be ‘I’ (which is the Roman numeral for one). “Abide as I and the One awakens within.” Whoa… 

A therapist says to a new client, “Tell me about yourself so I can determine what your problem is.” Hahaha… 

Don’t refuse to know yourself, just let life handle what you need to know. Just live and don’t make conclusions. Flow with the river of life and its comings and goings. 

Nail this first and then you’ll have amazing relationships. Because we project the need for happiness onto others because we’re dealing with the problems we have with ourselves, which are based on all we know about ourselves. No more! 

Your partner says, “What do you need from me?” Say, “Just a moment to bask in the glow of your perfection.” Bam!

“No experience” blows away bigger and bigger experiences. It’s the PhD program! And clarity just drops in when it needs to. Why don’t people do this? Because they have too many problems, since they know too much about themselves. 

The easiest way to validate yourself (and not need it from others) is to just sit with yourself like we did last night and give attention to yourself. 

Notes: Matt Kahn Retreat, Day 2

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Hello friend. These are my notes from Matt Kahn’s 5-day Standing For Love retreat. It was at the World Forestry Center in lovely Portland, OR on April 25-29, 2018. You can read my general, mind-blown impressions here. Because it was freaking insane!!! Okay, I had to get that out of my system… But seriously, it was craaaazy!!! I guess there was a bit more…

His retreats (and everything he does) always unfold intuitively, based on what the universe deems necessary for that situation at that time. It’s so cool to watch because it just happens, it just comes through. He said that this retreat ended up having a theme for each day. Day two was Thursday, and the theme was Emotion. Which is so huge and foundational for us humans to master… And we’re totally doing it! I know that myself, my readers, and my clients certainly are, anyway. It’s a process, and we’re on it. So cool, and as my path unfolds, it’s my greatest honor and joy to share. Here we go…

Thursday 4/26/18 am (Emotion Day)

Manifesting is coming into alignment with what was always meant to be.

The four factors of how conscious or unconscious you are (that he “downloaded” from the universe at breakfast this morning) – and we use this to shine a light on our growth edges and opportunities, NOT as a weapon against ourself in any way (which is so common on the spiritual path).

1. How quickly or easily to you become agitated? 

You can be very awake but still have lots of emotional density, emotional debris.

2. How genuinely do you receive compliments?

A compliment is trying to destroy your hiding spot to get out of hiding. It’s a spiritual missile that destroys the heart’s walls.

But you’re never ready for the words that matter most to your heart. You have to learn to be seen and to take it, by saying those words yourself. 

Let love destroy your barriers to life. A compliment is an assassination attempt to the inferior ego structure. 

Sometimes we don’t know how to take eye contact, too, which is also an assassination attempt. But they’re both gifts to the soul. 

Fear of intimacy is when an ego is coming to the end of its grip. We all go through it. It’s the ego’s last stand, losing its grip on object consciousness (thinking you and everyone else are separate objects rather than the same Source energy appearing in different costumes) and emerging into unity consciousness. 

3. How openly and generously do you give to those you love? 

When merged with the light of consciousness, we’re replenished by the vibration of giving. 

The activity of presence is interest. How interested are you in being part of another person’s passion? Passion is very interesting, no matter whose it is! Presence is being equally interested in your loved ones’ interests as your own. 

4. How deeply do you respect the space of someone else’s process (and your own)? 

Can you give space without feeling abandoned, rejected, or not good enough? 

Giving space is the balance of number 3, giving openly. Can you shift gears when that’s called for? 

When one partner is triggered, it means they’re not getting or taking the space they need. 

And then after those four factors, he continued…

Self-Love is the bridge that takes unconsciousness to consciousness. It melts unconsciousness and strengthens consciousness. 

Agitation is a sign of inner conflict in which one wants to be valued and validated by others but hasn’t learned to value and validate themselves

To see yourself is to see your inner beauty, i.e. your worth or the soul’s radiance. Have you ever taken the time to acknowledge your own beauty? 

I’m here! I’m so proud to be me. I’ve arrived. I’m there. As opposed to “when I’ve arrived, or when I get there, or when I make it, then blank…” This is it! 

There’s beauty in everything. Even pain: “I’ve earned this pain, and the right to be present with how fast I’m evolving.” Because it’s only emotional debris and physical inflammation that’s being cleared out so that more light can be embodied. 

The beauty in fear is the innocence that only wants to be told it’s going to be okay. 

The real spiritual journey is about finding our imperfections and embracing them with the perfection of unconditional love. What needs your love? In other words, where are you your greatest enemy? Where are you an enemy and not an ally to yourself? 

The final war of ego: the ego has a tantrum and gets nasty and mean when we don’t give into what it wants. And we respond by just loving it more and more, saying, “Go for it (i.e. say whatever mean things you need to say). I love you.” The shadow is like a child that didn’t get unconditional love so it replaced love with alcohol, food, etc. Now we’re giving it love instead. And when it gets hard and harsh, we get more soft. 

The only enemy to be found is our past choices. So let’s make peace with them, because that’s how we grew in consciousness to become what we are now. The shadow comes from the regret over those choices or the victimhood of others’ bad choices. 

If you feel bad about yourself, you’ll do things to confirm it. So flip it. Start to feel good about yourself to give permission to make powerful choices that are aligned with soul. It’s all just the way that energy moves. You have to feel better about yourself to choose better. 

AMAZING! I locked eyes with Matt for like a minute, and it felt like the strongest ray gun blast of amazing energy vibrating through my body. Wow! I was seeing white light around the periphery, too. 

When you face darkness, only more light is given. Glory be to those that feel. 

Darkness is afraid of being destroyed by light, so it has the vibration of fear. So if we fear darkness then we have the same vibration. When we face it, we reclaim another part of ourselves and we shine even brighter. Darkness is afraid of our light. So it doesn’t hunt us but just pushes up against anything that might destroy it. 

How much time do we spend being tender with ourselves? Like just sitting with yourself. 

Thursday 4/26/18 afternoon (Emotion Day)

To be grounded is to have interest in the moment at hand. Be still and be interested in what’s in front of you. 

He wanted a new teaching on forgiveness that’s empowering, not disempowering. So he asked the universe and this is what he got… 

First, have the right not to forgive. Take as much time as you need. And you have the right to be angry or sad, or even to hate. 

The three rules of Heaven are come as you are, be as you wish, and feel it now (it = IT = infinite truth). 

Back to forgiveness, let’s lay the foundation. First of all, know that people hurt others only to avoid their own pain (“hurt people hurt people” – and what he adds to that is, “free people free people”). It’s nobody’s fault because it’s unconscious. They haven’t learned to feel pain yet. 

We were chosen by the Divine to be hurt because we’re evolved enough to use the abuse for our growth (which is what this radical forgiveness process is about). And it heals the collective of abuse. 

They’re imprinting their pain onto our consciousness to avoid it. And our judgment (lack of forgiveness) allows their pain to squat in our consciousness, rent-free. And this kind of radical forgiveness says no more! You’re not going to use my energy field to hide your unconscious pain. 

“I forgive you” doesn’t condone it; it takes our power back. It gives back to others what’s not ours. We can’t be meek but strong. It comes from the warrior. 

Saying “I forgive you” (doesn’t have to be in person) says, “That doesn’t belong here – not here!” And after a while of practicing this, you don’t attract predatorial behavior. 

Walk into any place and silently say, “Who’s ready to be forgiven?” It’s going on the offensive and your light just blasts stuff. Forgiveness will keep you safe, literally. It’s a bomb of well-being, a love bomb. It’s great to exchange light with another but not to hold their pain. 

Forgive first (preemptively) and their behavior is not needed. Forgive first and nobody gets hurt. Forgiveness is about spreading and passing on blessings. 

The Process: Your personal problem is another person’s pain, so take your biggest problem. How does it make you feel? And who’s the first person that made you feel that way (or the one that made you feel that way the most)? Say, “I send this back to you as blessings of light for your journey ahead.” Send it back mercifully, powerfully, and decisively. 

So “let it go” really means “send it back.” And our team of angels and guides makes it happen. Bam! And we’re sending it back mercifully, knowing that it’s all part of evolution. 

To know God deeply is to live as God lives, and that’s to the rhythm of forgiveness. The giving back is the meaning of forgiveness. 

NOTE: This “send it back” forgiveness process is new, and I look forward to hearing the audio when it comes out in July so I can really master it. But know that everybody needs to deal with their own stuff, their own pain. If we’re holding their stuff then that’s holding up their journey of evolution. That’s why “send it back” is a part of evolution.

QnA led to his process for writing books. He has a title and subject he loves, since he’ll be teaching it for a while in support of he book (so you really have to love it). Then he channels an outline in like ten minutes. Then he writes and then edits, looking for repeated material. And of course he can add and subtract anytime. 

QnA – A woman said when she’s in a dark place, she can’t see any light at all. He said you can’t see light in darkness because you’re the only light that’s there. You’re the light that illuminates the darkness. The process is that you go to the dark to retrieve a part of yourself and bring it back to the light like a slingshot at higher and higher frequencies. Say to darkness, “Hello, friend, how may I serve you?” And we serve darkness (not its needs) to get it back to the light. 

Don’t love things as objects (they’re expressions of Source, not objects). 

Thursday 4/26/18 pm (Emotion Day)

Self-love is all about how interested we are in ourselves. 

Time is the ultimate enemy of the ego and the ultimate ally of the soul. How much time each day am I interested in me? Not my growth or my spiritual path, but me. 

Breathing through pain doesn’t make it better. It changes your relationship with pain, though, which does make it better over time. 

Then we did sitting for a long time. Just sit. It could be called sitting meditation, or zazen, but it was very informal and without rules. It’s more about what you’re not doing rather than what you’re doing. And you’re not doing anything except sitting. This is how to be with yourself. And how to be with your feelings; you just sit with them. Really cool! 

Notes: Matt Kahn Retreat, Day 1

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Hello, Beautiful. These are my notes from Matt Kahn’s 5-day Standing For Love retreat. It was at the World Forestry Center in lovely Portland, OR on April 25-29, 2018. You can read my general, mind-blown impressions here. Because it was freaking insane!!! Okay, I had to get that out of my system… But seriously, it was craaaazy!!! I guess there was a bit more…

His retreats (and talks and everything he does) always unfold intuitively, based on what the universe deems necessary for that situation at that time. It’s so cool to watch because it just happens, it just comes through. He said that this retreat ended up having a theme for each day. Day one was Wednesday, and the theme was expansion. So let’s expand…

Wednesday 4/25/18 am (Expansion Day)

He talked this morning all about blame, and it was amazing. Consider that whatever the problem is, the problem is not you and the problem is not anybody else. Presence is when there’s no blame. Discontent arises from blame. Unconsciousness is a dream of blame. 

Object consciousness is needed order to have blame. Object consciousness is when everything is precisely defined as this or that, rather than being more open, like, “this is just how I’m seeing things.” 

Give everything to the moment. And another person is just the moment in a costume. If they don’t give back, then they’re still integrating or digesting what you’ve given them. So give all of yourself to another and don’t wait for it to come back. There’s no separation, so you’re giving to yourself. If you give all of yourself, you don’t get exhausted. So go for it! To withhold takes you into object consciousness and not the infinite that you are. 

Consciousness is power. Unconsciousness is lack of power, so it can’t actually touch consciousness. Unless there’s blame. 

You don’t have to protect yourself (i.e. an empath or energetically sensitive being) unless you think you’re an object. 

How do you give yourself fully to the moment? Put aside any idea of where you end and another begins. How do you know another isn’t just an outer layer of you? 

Wednesday 4/25/18 afternoon (Expansion Day)

How do we get out of blame? It’s just an innocent tendency, that’s all. So how do we get out? First, see that we need a problem to have blame. But a problem is actually just a process, a spiritual growth opportunity, that we don’t understand yet. It’s all a gift. “It’s not a problem, it’s a process.” If you have trouble with something, just say to it, “You’re a gift that I haven’t been trained to recognize, so please teach me how to receive you.” 

Only objects have problems, and he doesn’t see himself as an object. 

Co-creation is really about cooperation. If you don’t remember creating it in Heaven, then you didn’t create it. Surrender and cooperate with what you were chosen to play out and life will get way better than your ego could ever imagine. This is the new Law of Attraction.  

Cooperation is the bridge from where you are to beyond your wildest dreams. 

The ego say, “I never get what I want.” The soul says, “I always get what I need.” 

Rejection is redirection (for the soul’s growth). 

Instead of wanting a bunch and having lots of desires, just say “thanks” or “thank you for choosing me” (for life’s path). The line to get in to Heaven of people that are wanting all the time is miles long. But the line of people that just say “thanks” only has like three people! So you’ll get in a lot faster. 

Take one moment to not want a single thing to be different. Just one moment. We did this, and WOW! A major shift. 

Getting what we want doesn’t change how we feel, because that comes from how we see ourself (ego vs. soul, object vs. expression of Source energy or consciousness). 

Cooperation with life is the key to fast evolution. This is HUGE! 

To speed things up, say, “No mercy. No mercy for me. No mercy for this one. Bring it on! Please would something devour me so I can be re-created in a greater image.” Be passionate about the process (remember that nothing is a problem, it’s a process). Darkness gets afraid when we say things like this. 

All that arises (i.e. fear, anger, jealousy) is for the purpose of deepening our relationship with it to be more intimate. And remember that these feelings come from the one that feels that way… the inner child. So you’re deepening your relationship with your self. 

Being totally willing to listen to our thoughts clears it because we’re finally treating thought like God would. And we’re God! 

“Oh well” is a mantra of cooperation, like when we don’t get what we want. “Oh” is the recognition that what we didn’t want to happen happened. And “well” refers to the fact that the one that witnessed the experience is eternal wellness in form.  

Take your growth seriously but don’t take yourself seriously; that’ll really help. And the more successful you are, the more flexible you have to be. 

QnA about cancer. Cancer isn’t something to be conquered but to be be-friended. It pushes against our boundaries of mortality and fairness. It’s a very deep opportunity to bring wellness into your life. And over time, you’ll see what’s in the Akashic records (what’s planned to unfold over time). 

Nothing says “bring me more” than being content with what you already have. 

Huge insights are only needed when you’re off course. So maybe you’re already just fine and on course. Also more intense spiritual experiences take longer integrate and are tougher to integrate. 

Life’s too perfect to be imagined (i.e. the ego trying to manifest versus “thanks fort what I have” or just “thanks”). 

Life’s also too perfect to be fair. And may we be freed from the character that thinks it’s not fair. 

Receive all that life gives, and it’s always giving, from a place of wholeness, contentment, and freedom. And that always brings more wholeness, contentment, and freedom. 

Wednesday 4/25/18 pm (Expansion Day)

The night session was a total deconstruction that blew our minds to help integrate all that happened and shifted on this big first day. And to help us sleep well and start Day 2 reborn and ready to fly! 

I’m Baa-aack, Again….. OMG………..

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Howdy folks! I got back from the 5-day Matt Kahn retreat in Portland on Monday night. And, it was amazing. OMG… WTF… LOL… You get the idea. Lots of folks have asked me how it was, and it’s been the hardest thing to describe, because it was just that ridiculous. Comically ridiculous. Me and some of my friends there, in fact, were joking about exactly this. He was making the same joke, too, because what can you say? It was simply nuts. Bananas. Craziness. This dude is channeling some powerful stuff, and it’s so cool how the retreat unfolds over the five days into a complete whole. It all happens naturally and with precision, and none of it is planned. So cool.

There were three sessions a day except for two on the last day, so that’s fourteen total sessions. There were maybe 300 or 350 people there? But it felt small and intimate. And each session was just ridiculous. (Yes, I seem to be using that word a lot today. Hey, I’m doing my best!). This dude just opens his mouth and what comes out takes a subject and completely blows your mind in a way that you just couldn’t have seen. And that happens literally each and every session, so the whole experience just grows exponentially. He thought it was nuts, his staff thought it was nuts, and the “old-timers” that have been to lots of these retreats over the years thought it was nuts. It was just… nuts.

He’s growing and shifting a ton, and so are all of us, and it’s happening really fast! So it’s no surprise that each gathering would build on the previous one. This one seemed to blast off into a whole new dimension, though. The other thing about his events is that you leave changed. You might not know what the hell happened, but you know you are not the same. That change, in fact, begins right away in the first session, and it continues from there. It’s pretty wild. I’ve been to a fair amount of deep spiritual retreats and events over the last fifteen years, and they pretty much all have you feeling on top of the world when you leave, but then it tends to fade. This is permanent. That was my take, anyway, as well as that of some friends there that have also been around the spiritual block. So that’s a cool takeaway.

I’ll be posting my notes before long, so stay tuned. I went in thinking that I wouldn’t take as many notes as the last one I went to since this was being recorded, but then he started dropping bombs. And the audio won’t be available until July, and I didn’t want to wait! So I broke out the pen and paper. I took more notes the first three days and less the second two days. That’s because I got a front row center seat on day four, and I didn’t want to be “notes guy.” Plus, it was the universe’s way of shifting me into something different. So what I’d do is write down some thoughts after the session, or just here and there. It all worked out very well.

The story of getting the front and center seat was really cool. They say ahead of time to move to different seats in each session to circulate the energy. Makes sense to me. The only thing, though, is that nobody really did it (except for each day, since we couldn’t leave our stuff there overnight). Those that got good seats definitely marked their territory all day. They got there super early in the morning to get up front, so I totally get it. And there really wasn’t a bad seat in the house. It’s like a concert or a sporting event or anything, though – being up close just has a deeper feel. For what it’s worth, that type of posturing happens far less at his events than at many others I’ve been to, which shows the maturity of the audience. Which reflects the maturity of the teacher. But we’re all still human, so it’s still there.

Anyway, I had a great seat in the morning session of day two. So we broke for lunch and I took my stuff with me. I came back a bit early from lunch, and I was in prime position to get a good seat for the afternoon session when they opened the doors to let us in. So they opened the doors and I walked in with a big smile on my face. Until I saw that all the seats had jackets on them. Ha! All good, because we’re talking about some serious “first word problems” here (or “zero world problems” if that’s a thing). But I did want to ask one of the staff members just so I was clear on the rules. His name was Eric – he’s my bro now – and he was just the nicest guy in the world. He knew exactly what I was talking about, and he said they like people to move around, but they can’t really control them. The message I got was to just mark my seat if I liked it and all would be well.

So I had another amazing afternoon session and then a transcendent night session. Then the next day, he said they saved a seat for me – front and center! I was right next to another staff member, Aaron, who is my bro now as well. I love these guys! They’re so nice. And they said I was so nice and gracious that they wanted to do something really nice for me. Honestly, I was totally blown away. I mean, it’s just a seat at a talk, in a very small venue, so it’s not that big a deal. But it’s the thought that counts, right? I certainly think so. So that was really cool and totally unexpected.

One thing that was interesting is that each day was sort of like a retreat in itself. It’s all intuitive for Matt (here’s my description from the retreat I went to in January that describes how he works), so the universe is in charge of how everything unfolds. And at this retreat, each day sort of had a theme (not planned, it just unfolded that way). Day one was expansion, day two emotion, day three oneness, day four relationships, and day five self-responsibly. One aspect of self-responsibility or self-awareness involves acting with integrity, and that’s huge with him. Remember that this is all about integration and embodiment. Going up to the heavens with our big awakenings and insights, but then coming back down and bringing it all into the body to be a fully divine human. To be a DESCENDED master, that’s why we’re here. Most of the old paradigm is really about the first half of the journey. And honestly, I wanted to get the hell out of this place for years! It was Matt that helped me finally see and accept my mission to be here in full and anchor tons of light on earth. And we’re doing a pretty good job of that, I think! And we’re just getting started.

Something else happened during the morning session of day two that was really cool. It was an intense part of the session, and there was a long silence as he just looked around the room, letting things sink in. And I locked eyes with him for like a minute. And I’m telling you, it felt like the strongest ray gun blast as my whole body vibrated. It felt amazing! This dude is running some energy through him. And the periphery of my vision had a white light sort of glow around it. I see that in sessions sometimes at peak moments, but this was greatly magnified. This dude packs a serious punch! So I went up to him after the session and said how cool it was, and I also told him about what I’m doing in Pensacola (I’d done the same in California when I first met him). I want him to know that his stuff is reaching lots of people that are connected to me. And of course I got another picture with him since I still have a huge man crush…

Well, that’s probably a fitting place to end this tale of my second Matt Kahn retreat. Freaking wow, bring on the next one. I think it’s in October, and I can’t wait. I’ll be posting my notes before long, and the audio will be out in July. He also has his second book coming out in early June, Everything Is Here To Help You. Someone he hired to promote it found my blog and sent me an advance copy (which I also told him), so I’ll be writing about that in the coming weeks. It’s pretty incredible and very practical, your guide to seeing life through the soul’s eyes instead of the ego’s. WOW. And he’ll be doing a six-city book tour with talks being live streamed for a super low price, so I’ll share information on that as well. Check it out and you’ll see what I mean. And as crazy as all this sounds, his talks are equally relaxed and simple and easy to digest. That’s the new paradigm that we’re in, the best of both worlds. So check it out, and then I might not sound like such a crazy person about this guy. I’m not sure that’s possible at this point, though… Anyway peace out! It’s nice to be back, and as always, let me know if I can help.

Flipping Desire

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This is really cool, folks. We’re going to take another look at desire to see if we can have a totally different experience of it. And yes, it comes from listening to Matt Kahn, which I kind of do a lot these days… For like the last nine and a half months straight… Whoa, the gestation period of a human baby, interesting. Well, not straight, because when you’re full that means it’s time to take a break and let things integrate, let what you’ve learned sink in. After all, the slow way is the fast way. And then when you feel ready again, you pick up where you left off. And that’s how it works. It’s just like when you water the grass, if you keep watering for too long the water will puddle up; it needs to sink in before it’s time for more water. So many of us are shifting so fast – really fast! – and we need periods of rest and integration. Back to the story… Oh, wait – first let me tell you that this comes from Matt’s Becoming The Beloved retreat from October 2017 that I’ve written about that’s been on sale for $99. For sixteen hours of these ridiculous, transformational talks. Do it! Here we go…

There are many of us that tend to experience desire as lack, a reminder of what we don’t have. And that doesn’t feel good. The thought pops in that we want something, and then we feel bad because we don’t have it. We’re always practicing loving what arises here at A Clean Mind, so it can certainly help to love the part of us that feels this way; we always align with the breath first (fancy words for “take a deep breath”), and we love what arises. Giving some loving attention to the one inside that feels lack can never hurt, and it can even help you start feeling better immediately.

But let’s take it to the next level. And note that some Law of Attraction (LOA) folks will be familiar with this. I’d recommend putting what you know aside for now, though, so you can check this out with fresh eyes. I’ll address LOA a bit below, and I’m sure we’ll address it more later in a post called The New Law Of Attraction. Because we’re in a new paradigm now with new rules, so let’s start fresh. And anything you already know will still be there to pick up again anyway, so there’s no pressure, no risk. Back to the story…

So let’s experiment with something besides desire being an experience of lack. Let’s flip desire and let it be a good experience, a fulfilling one, rather than an unpleasant one. And this will happen energetically, because feeling is energy. And even when you do get what you want, it’s not the thing itself but rather the feeling of having it that you’re truly after. So even if you don’t have something physically, you can still have the experience energetically. What??

So actually feel the desire; feel that energy in your body. Let it flow, let it move. You might even close your eyes and imagine that you already have whatever it is that you want (and please, if you’re driving then either don’t close your eyes or pull over, thanks). When you do this, it can feel really amazing! Again, that’s because you’re having the same experience energetically. Then just go on about your day, with that nice feeling lingering.

This is where we have to be sharp, though, and this is where we’ll deviate from some of the LOA thought process. Because our foundation is that the universe is super smart and it knows what’s best for us in every moment (that’s actually the new law of attraction, by the way, that you’re already attracting exactly what you need for your soul to grow in the most efficient way). The universe is in charge of what I have and what I don’t have, not my ego (even if it’s a fancy spiritual ego like the one that’s unraveling in me!). The more we’re rooted in this understanding, the more we can let the feeling of desire be a fulfilling, positive energetic experience of having what we want. And then we just go on about our day feeling good and spacious. But the LOA stuff generally moves right into thoughts like this: “How do I make it happen? I need to get that. I need to manifest it. Why is it not here? Why is it taking so long?? Why do I suck at manifesting? Am I being punished?! Was I a major jerk in my past lives?” And that kind of thinking, even more subtle versions (I exaggerated to make it clear – but trust me, many people do think that way), feels awful.

The LOA folks tend to go right into manifesting mode, in which they need to do some work to make it happen, to bring what they want into reality. And then there’s judgment if it doesn’t work or if it takes a long time. But here’s the deal, it’s the ego that’s doing all that fancy dance, not the soul. It’s like having a five-year-old with the car keys, about to crank up the engine. Not the best plan! It’s totally innocent, so innocent, just wanting desperately to help. And it’s part of everyone’s journey (present company included, big time!). But it’s not the best plan.

So let’s shift to how the soul sees things. Because with the assumption that the universe is in charge – meaning it’s totally fine that I don’t have it, of course I don’t have it, because clearly I’m not supposed to have it at this time! – that game is all out the window. We don’t have to do that anymore. I’ve played that game, and I know for a fact that many people that do end up judging themselves mercilessly. They’re always needing this or that, and peace is nowhere to be found. Wanting it, and then enjoying the feeling of imagining having it, and then going about your day – that’s where the peace is. Wanting leads to more wanting; having leads to more having. Breathe with that for a bit, because it really blew me away when I first heard it. What we’re doing now is having the experience. And then we’re going about our day. Done.

Another take is that desiring something is a preview of what life already has in store for you. That’s pretty interesting… But you have to be prepared to receive it first, and sometimes that requires change. Maybe our desires, then, are what the universe uses to lead us into growth. So the preparation time can be long or short, and it has nothing to do with your manifesting abilities. This really is that separate post called The New Law Of Attraction, which we’ve pretty much covered already. So much more simple. When you notice a desire, shift right to the feeling of having it. But not to make it come to you (that’s the universe’s job), but just to have a nice experience in that moment. Then just go on about your day, knowing that you’re being prepared to receive it. And anytime a part of you shows up that says, “But I don’t have it and I want it,” just love that little one on the spot. And… go on about your day.

By the way, “little buddy” and “little honey” have become the names I’ve been using in sessions and in talks when talking about our heart, our inner child. And it’s become sort of a running joke, because it sounds so cheesy and ridiculous. But it works! So maybe that’s another blog post. And there might be another one called “Then Just Go On About Your Day.” Because that’s a big theme, too. Stop over-analyzing everything! And I will, too. Just keep moving forward. See how bad you can do it (because you probably can’t). If you really need a certain insight or thought, it’ll pop in much better the less you try.

So there we go, folks, the tale of Flipping Desire. Test this out and play with it. And here’s a final thing to point out that’s really important – there will often be a part of you that feels a burn when you make the choice to dive into the energetic experience. If not, great, but if so, then it’s just that little ego that thinks it needs it now. So… let it burn, a very loving burn. It’s just some innocent smallness in you that you no longer need. Love the burning one and move on. And in short time, those old energies will be cleared out and you really will start to have the nice energetic experience of having what it is that you want without any sense of lack. You’ll also become more rooted in the fact – FACT! – that the universe is in charge, not your ego, and it knows exactly what it’s doing. And your whole relationship with desire will change, because you’ve flipped it from a negative experience of lack to an experience that is fulfilling. And do you know what will happen then? You’ll just go on about your day.

The Energetic Vacuum Cleaner

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There’s a phrase I’ve been using in my sessions that I’d like to introduce you to, and it’s the Energetic Vacuum Cleaner. And since I often like to shorten things up, we can also call it the EVC. And I can never remember how to spell “vacuum,” by the way – such a weird spelling. I always start with two c’s, but then I remember how weird the word is spelled, so clearly there has to be two u’s, because that’s super weird. So it ends up being “vaccuum,” but then it looks like something’s just not quite right. I’ll bet I’ll remember it now, though, since I’m writing all of this ridiculous stuff about how a random word is spelled. So go with your ridiculousness, people! Don’t hold back. Unless you’re at work… don’t get fired or anything, and if you do then please don’t blame me. Back to the story…

So we’re all carrying around old “stuff.” Which means old feelings. Which means old frequencies, or energies. A phrase I love is “emotional debris.” And what do we use to clean up “stuff?” A vacuum cleaner. So it sure would be nice to have an energetic vacuum cleaner. Well, it turns out that we do have one! What is it called? Life. The universe. More specifically, it’s when crappy things happen to you… Yay.

Remember the post not too long ago called Another Spilled Smoothie? That’s the EVC in action. When you’re triggered and you’re doing your best to just let it burn, remind yourself that the EVC is literally sucking old stuff out of your energy field, stuff you no longer need or want. You’re being cleaned out in that moment, so just surrender and let the process happen. Thinking this way might even make it so it’s okay and you’re less annoyed. And after a while, you might even like it! That’s some crazy stuff right there… But it can totally happen, because now you’re reminding yourself right away that it’s the ego unraveling and burning away, and emotional debris is being sucked from the cells of your body. Those are both very, very good things right there.

Also – and this is HUGE! – know that sludge is only leaving when more light or soul is ready to inhabit your body. You see, when more of the good stuff (your soul) is ready to enter and make a home, it needs some space. Yep, some ego needs to go. So the soul has the universe trigger you to kick in the EVC. The EVC sucks out some sludge, burning up some ego and carving out space for the light to enter. And as this happens throughout your life, you feel better and better. And life gets more and more magical. Isn’t that freaking cool???

So there we go, good folks, the Energetic Vacuum Cleaner, or the EVC. And you know what? I spelled it right the first time! And this is a short blog post. I could get used to this. Probably not, though… Anyway, much love to you and whatever is going on in your life. And as always, I’m here to help if I can.