I’m Baa-aack… HOLY WOW!!

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So I went to see my spiritual man crush guy Matt Kahn last weekend for a three day retreat. And wow. Whoa. Coolest. Guy. Ever. Truly amazing to see this dude operate! He’s basically an open channel for the universe that’s allowed all of his personal BS to be cleared out over the years. Cool and hilarious and ridiculously intuitive – ridiculously intuitive. He know things, lots of things. Without even trying. So natural, it just comes through, whatever is most needed at the time. He’s also incredibly nice and humble and gracious and polite, too. And real. And normal. One way all the time, whether on stage or off. Just unbelievable.

Also I took lots of notes, which I’ve posted in six posts, one for each of the six sessions (he first one from Thursday night is here). He was dropping bombs left and right, and they weren’t recording it as they often do for purchase later. Like the Feel Good Now retreat that I wrote about last summer for $111. Which is nothing, considering how it might start to rewire your whole existence, as it has mine. And the retreat after that from last October, Becoming The Beloved – that’s on sale for even less, $99. I’ll write about that soon as well, giving you the link and the promo code. What a bargain! Back to the story… And it’s a bit long, but it’s all just so cool and interesting that I thought you might want to hear about it. Here we go…

So we were at a new retreat center in northern California called 1440 Multiversity. It’s south of Silicon Valley and a bit north of Santa Cruz. I saw tons of Teslas and a Ferrari dealership… yay Cally! It’s on a beautiful piece of property out among the massive redwood trees, misty in the morning, hiking trails, an infinity hot tub, and amazing, healthy food. That’s always huge at these kinds of things – amazing, healthy food. And the people that work at this place are so freaking nice! Like, ridiculously nice. Genuinely happy. Glowing. That was one of the coolest things about it.

We started on Thursday night, went all day Friday and Saturday, and finished by lunchtime on Sunday. Then I stayed a couple of extra nights with an old friend from Pensacola that lives out there. I caught a cold on the flight over, and my right ear hasn’t popped yet. And it’s been five days. So it’s like there’s a megaphone in my head. I think it’s just the lingering congestion. I’ve had glimpses of The Pop and the normal hearing that comes with it, and then it reverts back. All good, it’ll happen in due time. I think it’s getting a little better, in fact. The client sessions since I’ve been back have been awesome, so we’re doing just fine. And as always with anything I learn, I was able to apply the new stuff right away, without even thinking about it. I mean, a client would bring up a subject and it would be exactly one of the topics we had just covered. So cool.

It was a very intimate gathering. There were maybe 180 people, which sounds like way more than it was. It felt very small and intimate, and the energy in the room was insane. It wouldn’t take long in each session for there to be a deep, very palpable stillness. Some call it samadhi. And with a group that size all vibrating that way together, it feels really cool. It’s like everyone’s mind has been totally silenced. That’s what happens a lot with him, in fact. Questions are asked that are designed not to be answered but rather to blow the small mind to bits. This is all about approaching life from a higher vantage point, a higher consciousness, where solutions already are – not trying to solve problems from the same level of consciousness that created them. It’s a totally different spin, a different way of going about things. It feels better and it works better, the win-win that we love so much here at A Clean Mind. So I’m sitting with a large group of people and our minds have all been blown, and our bodies feel strangely light and awesome. So cool.

There were certainly times when people felt challenged, but it wasn’t because he was trying to be a jerk; quite the contrary, in fact. This is easily the most loving, heart-centered stuff I’ve ever experienced (I mean, his first book is called Whatever Arises, Love That, after all). It was just that awakened consciousness was arising in them and butting up against their old conditioning, their old thinking and beliefs, their old smallness. And none of that stuff is meant to survive! So just breathe and relax and let it unravel. After all, life will eventually unravel whatever is not meant to survive anyway (the ego and all of its beliefs and habits and patterns), so let’s go ahead and get on with it. By breathing and letting it burn to the ground. One woman said her body was totally burning, in fact, and she wanted to run. Again, that was her ego fearing for its life. And for good reason! When this happens, we lean into the fire and let it burn. I’ve talked about this before, like the morning after that football game not long ago. Anything that burns away is only stuff that we don’t need, so let it burn. It was really cool to see him work with her when she said this, and I really respected her for being so honest in front of everyone. I forgot what he said or had her repeat, but it got her body to relax and go along with the plan.

Then a guy stood up after her to say he was experiencing the same thing, and he was also feeling like falling sleep and even passing out. Matt explained each. Falling asleep happens when we’re not used to our nervous system being so relaxed. Our mind only associates a level of deep relaxation with sleep, so the body thinks, “Yay, bedtime!” The feeling of passing out is different, though. That’s when the conscious mind is being challenged too much, with old beliefs crumbling. It freaks out, so the intelligent body just bypasses it altogether by passing out. Then the subconscious mind can take over and receive the teachings just fine (the conscious mind will catch up later). So cool. Also note that a couple of clients just this past week since I’ve been back have told me they’ve fallen asleep listening to some of his talks that I’ve shared. I said great, let the body rest. Eventually you’ll get used to it.

The other people at the retreat were all very nice. I’ve been through the spiritual ringer over about the last fifteen years, going to lots and lots of workshops and retreats right from the beginning. It all started in the “energy world” for me, and to be honest it was a bunch of massive energy addicts and huge spiritual egos, including me! And bless our hearts, we were all doing our best at the time. But it was not a very mature path at all. Hey, you gotta start somewhere… And since that’s where I was, then that’s exactly where I was supposed to have been. I’ve already started writing a post about my own path and all the twists and turns, so hopefully I’ll get it finished at some point. But thankfully it has gotten more and more mature with each step along the way. And the people at the events have totally reflected that. They’re just more chill and relaxed, with less of an edge. There was something about the people at that first retreat. When the first lunch break came, I sensed an ugly vibe, a vibe that felt like it didn’t belong. Then I realized they were all jockeying for position to go to lunch with the guru guy! And that guy was actually pretty cool. But these people that seemed all chill just a few minutes before now seemed liked they’d step over their own grandmother if they could sit with the teacher and gain whatever they could gain from such close proximity. It. Felt. Awful. And I was totally “bright eyed and bushy tailed,” (where on earth does that expression come from??), but I picked up on what was happening loud and clear.

I moved pretty quickly from the “energy world” to the “consciouness world,” and what a difference. And the path continued from there. But nothing so far compares to this. There’s still some of that stuff that I mentioned above, but I think a small amount is just being human; I don’t know that it’s ever totally gone. I feel very good about these people and their spiritual maturity, and that’s a direct reflection of the teacher and the teachings.

Speaking of which, the way in which Matt works is amazing to watch. He says he has an idea of what he might want to teach beforehand, but then when he sits down something totally different might pop in. Or he could have an idea of what he wants to teach, and then another teaching is sparked by a conversation at breakfast or on the walk over to the auditorium. You get the idea. That’s what happened at each session, it seemed. New teachings as well as new slants and nuances of old teachings are coming in all the time. And it all just flows. It was flawless. He’s just such a clear channel for the universe that this is exactly what that group most needs at that time.

On Saturday morning, for instance, I was not at peace. It wasn’t a crisis or anything, just feeling strange, feeling off. And what he talked about to begin the session addressed exactly what the issue was. It’ll be in the notes later, but it’s that when consciouness begins to awaken in an individual, it wakes up before the emotional body matures. So there’s still some junk in the emotional body, and it’s like the ego really sees itself for the first time. And it is ashamed of what it sees. And that can feel awful. Are you doing anything wrong? No! You’re waking up, which is beautiful. It’s just an awkward stage, like when a new president is elected and the old president moves out of the White House before the new one has fully moved in. It’s awkward. It’s transitional. But still, it’s nothing more than a temporary, totally normal phase. When he said this, I realized it was exactly what I was experiencing. And in seeing it, it vanished on the spot with a hearty, “mind = blown” laugh. And a thank heavens for this guy! Lots of gratitude. Nothing to work through, nothing to heal, nothing to clear. Just more clear seeing. Just some true understanding of what on earth is going on. Thank you, brother, thank you. And what a perfect thing to clear up on Saturday morning, since the last day and a half had provided plenty of time for stuff to be stirred up. Old stuff saying good bye on its way out. Bye-bye…

So that type of thing would happen. Also he would begin a session with a mind blowing teaching, and then it would wind around to all this amazing stuff. For like two hours. And then out of nowhere, it would come back full circle to whatever he had said to start the whole thing. And since you’d totally forgotten about that since it was two hours ago, it’s like a bomb had been dropped. You’re sitting there smiling and thinking, “How does he do that??” But here’s how – it’s not difficult at all for the super intelligent universe, and that’s what is in charge. He’s just mastered being an open channel, so everything else happens naturally and effortlessly. He doesn’t plan it or even know it’s going to happen, so he’s just as awestruck as we are. In fact, he doesn’t know what’s going to come out of his mouth in any moment until it comes out (that’s how he lives 24-7). It’s the universe talking, not an ego. WOW. Again, it was amazing to see this in action.

So that’s the flow of one session; there’s also the flow of the whole retreat. It started Thursday night with him saying things to sort of dismantle and unhook us from our old, outdated beliefs. He tunes into the group energetically like it’s one being, and he feels out where we are and what we need. It’s effortless, too – he doesn’t even have to close his eyes. Then he says simple things that blow your mind, yet you feel really good and spacious at the same time. That’s the body saying YES. And he pointed out that the part of us that doesn’t understand in any moment isn’t supposed to understand; in fact, it can’t understand! So let it burn or unravel or whatever. And the effect of that first session is to clear lots of space to make room for a ton of truth later. And a ton of truth we got.

Then the final session wrapped up the whole thing up beautifully. There was a teaching on abundance that blew my mind and made me laugh at the same time because it was so awesome and simple. It was really different and fresh, and also WAY less pressure-packed than the common way it can be taught, which often leads to people thinking, “Why do I suck so much at abundance??” Hahaha, funny but true. No pressure at all here. Then there was a teaching about a simple way to be at peace in any moment. Hey, that sounds great! Then there were some other teachings, and he finished it all up with a teaching about relaxing and not working on ourselves all the time. That’s what spiritual people tend to do, in case you haven’t noticed… And it’s endless! (I’ll probably give some talks around town about this eventually, because it’s so important). Just go home and be normal. There’s a time for work, like if you’re going through an emotional process, but we’ve already done the “constant work” phase enough. We’ve graduated. Be more normal and let life evolve you. Let it do its thing. Let life be in charge, and not you. Because who do you think is more qualified?? Feel free to laugh out loud, by the way. I mean LOL… And notice that we’re back to our win-win of feeling better AND getting better results in life.

Also if we can feel so awesome and peaceful at the retreat, then why can’t we feel that way at home? What’s different besides the costumes that consciousness is wearing (i.e. the people around you are different)? Does that really make it impossible for you to experience this level of peace? No, it does not. So bring it on. Let’s commit to life even more fully, because that’s why we’re here. We’re here to bring heaven to earth, and that’s what we’re doing, and this is what it looks like. Bring it on. And with someone like Matt to give us these “cosmic briefings,” as he calls them, the rules of the game are getting more clear all the time. Yes, even with all the chaos in the world. We’re the ones that came here to clean this place up, at this exact crazy time, and we’re doing it by letting our light shine more and more. By being ourselves, because that’s who we came here to be. Not anyone else – YOU. Exactly as you are right now. And that feels good. Peace and love to you, and enjoy the upcoming notes! There are lots of them, by the way… And as always, let me know if I can help 🙂

Whoa. Culture = Cult

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We recently talked about our unconscious conditioning in a post about how a football game helped me grow spiritually. Yes, you read that correctly… Because the universe is so smart that it uses anything and everything to give us the opportunity to grow. It’s actually happening all the time, so it’s a nice thing to know about. And if we don’t take an opportunity or if we don’t feel ready or up for it, or if we don’t even recognize it as an opportunity, then we’re still every bit as innocent! It’s all good, and it’s all about timing. I mean, it’s going to happen at some point. So we can usually be pretty relaxed about it.

So I wanted to just talk a bit more generally about this unconscious conditioning. Because it really blew my mind when someone pointed out that if you want to shorten the word “culture,” you get “cult.” WOW. And what do most of us think about when we think of “cult?” Brainwashing. So if you take a close look, anyone that comes from a culture is brainwashed to some degree. And who comes from a culture? Everyone.

If you really look, we all come from lots of different cultures, both big and small and everywhere in between. There’s the culture of your family, friends, school, hometown, state, region, country, skin color, race, ethnicity, sports preferences, political views, hobbies, preferences, generation, sexual orientation, gender, and on and on and on. It’s literally endless. These are all different lenses through which we view the world, and some lenses are thicker for a given person than others. Some are more cracked and distorted and dusty than others. Some are more clear than others. When we become aware of this, we can start to ponder how life would look with different lenses or glasses. And then we can start to ponder how life would look without them. 

When we do this sort of thing, it will usually flush up some old feelings or energies, often called pain, from our body. It’s just like I described in the football game post mentioned above. That was some serious fire that I burned in! But it was so crazy that it didn’t even last long. I burned in some far nastier stuff a little over a year ago, and it lasted much longer. I wrote about it here and then followed it up here. It was when I just couldn’t sleep one night, and yes, it was over a girl… And it was this intense lava in my body. But even then, it only lasted about six hours. And then I was so astonished, because it was gone. GONE. Totally gone. It was amazing. Because this was some major core stuff… so when you really think about it, six hours of laying there trying to sleep while your inner child totally freaks out ain’t bad. Because it’s growth; all that sludge is leaving your system. And what I didn’t understand back then was that the bulk of this pain is actually old stuff leaving. Goodbye. And then the client sessions the next day totally shifted, too. Much deeper. I mean, I noticed it. It was super obvious, not subtle at all. It’s strange how the outer world seems to shift with the inner

So there we go,  just a few words about conditioning. And really seeing that a huge part of the human condition in this day and age is being born and then being totally brainwashed. Yay brainwashing! Yay conditioning! Nobody is doing anything maliciously; they’re just living according to their own conditioning, and as a little kid you’re like a sponge with no say in the matter. And then as you grow up and start to notice it, you start to have some choice. And I’m just telling you my stories in case it can help you deal with and heal from yours. And we all grow together. And as always, let me know if I can help.

A Football Game Helped Heal My Inner Child!

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We all have some amount of really old conditioning (usually a ton of it), stuff that defines how we see the world. And this is generally stuff that was imposed on us, stuff that we had no say about. And it usually isn’t malicious at all; in fact, quite the opposite. So what am I talking about in this case? My dad was a huge Auburn fan…

My dad was awesome. And he was a huge Auburn fan. He went to college there back in the day and so did his older brother, my Uncle Bill. And by the way, doesn’t everybody have an Uncle Bill? I think most people do. It might be the most common uncle name. Back to the story… So there’s nothing wrong with someone loving a football team and cheering for them. And there’s nothing wrong for their kid to follow suit. It’s great! But it can cause some conditioning, and that’s what we’re going to take a look at today. And it’s absolutely fascinating. 

As some of you may know, last week Alabama beat Georgia in the college football national championship game. And Auburn-Alabama might be the biggest rivalry in all of sports. I’m sure there are rivalries across the world that I have no idea about, and maybe even some that involve death. But this one is up there. So my love for Auburn has always had this dark “other side of the coin,” which is a deep, deep hatred of Alabama. For real! Hatred. I’m a fairly peaceful dude, but for most of my life, I have not been able to stand their color, the font of their logo (that ‘A’), their slogan, their nickname, or even the houndstooth pattern that they’ve been associated with from the days of coaching legend Bear Bryant and his houndstooth hat. I mean, did they really have to ruin an entire pattern? I honestly don’t like houndstooth, anyway, so I’m glad it’s that one and not something else. But still.

And then there are the fans. I’m a pretty nice guy, and I’ve just naturally never been one to rub it in when someone is down. That’s never felt good or right to me, and I realized later in life it’s because I’m empathic and I actually feel their pain. But anytime Alabama beat Auburn when I was young, the phone would ring the second the game ended. I mean, the second the game ended. And it was some “friends” calling to laugh and gloat and basically be huge jerks. I’m talking to you, Justin and Bobby! (And they’re actually very good friends of mine to this day and always have been). These games were a very big deal to me – huge! – and I’m sitting there in massive pain like it’s the end of the world, and then they call and act like that? Who would do that?? I truly didn’t understand it, and I vowed never to act like that. They’re much nicer now, by the way. Justin actually called me this year after Auburn beat Alabama, which was really cool. He certainly didn’t have to do that, of course. But it shows the difference from being a kid to now.

Of course those are just two kids, but their fans are pretty much known to have a major attitude. And when my mom said they were exactly the same when she was in college, it confirmed this. Stuff like that is passed down from generation to generation – more of that same unconscious conditioning that we’re talking about today, which I mentioned above. And I know plenty of amazing Alabama fans, too, that are not super obnoxious! But the other ones sort of ruin it for you as far as your perception. Just saying.

I say all this to paint a picture of how my body felt when I woke up the next morning and saw that Alabama had won. I watched the first half and Georgia was dominating, so I went to bed. It was a Monday night, I had lots of clients the next day, and I wanted my beauty sleep. By the way, I have lots of family members, including my mom, that went to Georgia. And Athens was a second home to me in college and after. An amazing place! Athens will always hold a very special place in my heart.

When I woke up the next day and looked at my phone, the first thing I saw was a text from my old brother sarcastically saying he was psyched that it was going to overtime since he didn’t really need to sleep very much on a work night. He’s in the eastern time zone, too, so it was pretty late (Pensacola is central). So I thought, “Uh-oh.” I decided to just get it over with and rip the band-aid off, so I opened up a sports app, and there it was. Alabama 26, Georgia 23. They won. Again. Wow.

I’m literally still laying in my bed looking at the phone, and suddenly there’s the most awful feeling in my body. Primordial anger. Or more like just primordial nastiness. Gunk. Badness. Ouch-ness. Despair. Life sucks right now. It all rushed up immediately, and there was nothing I could do about it. My instinctive reaction was to sort of bitch in my head about it. Resist it. Complain about it. Be mad about it. But I don’t want to live this way! I don’t want to be affected this much by a bunch of dudes that I don’t even know that are running around a field in tights with a weird-shaped ball. And I should’ve said this right away, but please feel free to laugh at this! Because it’s hilarious. Anyway, I’m lying there feeling all this strong energy, and I spontaneously decided that it’s time to shift. It’s time to mature, to grow up. It’s time to face this.

So what did I do? First, I breathed. That’s almost always step number one, by the way. And then I burned in the fire. I surrendered to it and let it melt me. And then the wildest thing happened. The image popped in of me congratulating a Bama fan. NOOOOO!!! I mean, this literally felt like torture in that moment, not even one minute after this whole episode began that morning. My immediate reaction to this thought was a very strong recoiling, like I was walking and saw a rattlesnake and instinctively jumped out of the way with a rush of adrenalin and fear. But I didn’t move. I let it burn me some more, and I stayed with it, holding the thought there, the thought of actually congratulating an Alabama fan. Breathing. Burning. And yes, this is really funny.

And then something happened. The fire started to die down, and I was actually able to picture myself saying congratulations. I was able to think about doing that without that feeling, that strong resistance. And again, this is freaking hilarious! But it’s real. This is how conditioning works, and for a kid that grew up with brothers playing lots of sports in the deep south, this is some very deep, foundational conditioning. It’s important. Yours might be something else, like nationality, ethnicity, gender, political party, religion, spirituality, musical preference, sexual orientation, etc. It can be anything. Back to the story…

So the fire left, and my body felt nice and spacious again. And I could picture myself congratulating one of those people. “One of those people” – sorry, I couldn’t help myself. I mean, it’s not all gone yet! Baby steps. And then it got even cooler. I was able to be happy for the freshman quarterback that Alabama put in to start the second half, since their starting quarterback wasn’t playing well. Nobody had heard of this guy, and he comes in throwing these lasers. It’s pretty amazing when you think about it. He hardly plays all year – and he was in high school six months ago – and then he comes in and puts on a beautiful show on one of the biggest stages. That’s it… beauty. I was able to see the beauty. The beauty that was always there but that was obscured by this old, innocent conditioning that can be so damn strong. Wow.

So there you go folks, what a game! Isn’t that interesting? Feel free to ponder any conditioning you might have that affects your life in a way that you don’t like or that you’re tired of. Maybe you can see some you’re ready to ditch, and that you’d be better served without. Just be curious, though, and stay innocent! Be gentle about it. I’ve done the “super-critical magnifying glass” method before, and I don’t think it’s the answer. Also some stuff takes time. Like this. The universe knows exactly what you’re ready to face and release, as well as when the best time is. In other words, it’ll give you every opportunity you need, like a random football game. It’s not like I was looking forward to this game as a way to release conditioning; I thought it was just a game! But when I noticed that nasty energy in my body the next morning, that’s when I had a choice. And I was finally ready to face it and burn in it. And if I had not made that choice, I’d still be just as innocent. But I’d also still be very easily triggered by the colors, the logo, the houndstooth. And I don’t want that stuff to have any power over me at all, except maybe to bring joy. So there we go, the tale of an enlightening football game. And as always, let me know if I can help.

I’m Going To See Matt Kahn…

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I’m psyched, folks! As you know, I can’t stop talking about my spiritual man-crash guy, Matt Kahn. This dude has rewired my whole existence in pretty short time. It really ramped up in July when the radical self-love stuff finally clicked for me. That happened after I purchased the audio from a retreat of his and listened to it. It was called the Feel Good Now retreat, and it was hours and hours of mind blowing talks. I wrote about it here, and had the promo code info for the steep discount, for anyone that felt to buy it. And I just checked and the promo code is still good, by the way. Your life might change, though, so watch out… One client started listening to it and actually stopped midway through because her life started shifting so much. But it was the universe saying she was ready to move beyond some serious old sludge. And we got her past it no problem. It was pretty crazy, though. And really cool. She handled like a champ, actually. Very powerful stuff.

He announced another five-day retreat back in October, and I decided to go. So I entered all of my registration information, and then when I clicked Buy on PayPal, it didn’t go through. I instantly thought, “The universe might be saying no.” I tried again, knowing that it should work, and again it did not go through. Basically, it was an unlikely reason – a technical error that was simple to fix – that caused the problem. So by now I was thinking this felt like pretty clear no. And I didn’t have to like it or understand it. Because the universe really, really wants me to start “getting it” that it knows best, and everything is happening for my highest growth. But me being me, I thought I’d have some fun. I pretty much knew it was a no, but I grabbed a quarter anyway. Feel free to laugh… And I flipped it. And it was a no. Okay, clearly this was a no. But again, being me, I had to give it one more chance. So I grabbed a pendulum, asked the question, and it started swinging from left to right instead of front to back. For me, that’s a… no. So finally, I capitulated. By the way, I doubt I would’ve gone had the pendulum said yes. I was pretty convinced already about the “no,” but why not have some fun? I didn’t know why this one wasn’t for me, but I’m learning surrender to the universe, which is smarter. And as it turned out, a client went to the retreat. So it was her time, and not mine. And she came back totally rewired, too. So amazing to witness!

After that, they announced this one that’s next weekend, Thursday through Sunday. It’s at a new retreat center called 1440 Multiversity up in the redwoods of Northern California. Near San Jose, to be exact. And I knew it was time. So I signed up, and PayPal worked like a charm. Here we go!

I can’t tell you how much different I am since October, for one thing. It might not always show on the outside, and often it doesn’t, but a lot has been going down since July. And for the last fifteen years, really… But it’s sped WAY up recently. So I’m much more ready now. What I did in July was go back through all of Matt’s old emails from his email list, and I wrote down every promo code for every “featured product of the month.” And I bought them all. I mean, there are more gold nuggets in this stuff than anything I’ve ever encountered, by far. It’s not even close. And most were discounted from $299 to $111. That’s a laughable amount for the transformational powers of this stuff, and I’m grateful to be able to afford it. And also to share the good news here for those that resonate. We’re in a new era now, and his teachings reflect that. They just feel different. I know because I’ve been through there spiritual rat race pretty hardcore. I’m not here to master the old stuff; I’ve already done that, and so have many of you. The stuff about relaxing, healing our hearts, and letting the universe guide is so much more powerful and less judgy. Like judging ourselves for not meditating enough or reading enough or whatever. Bye-bye to all of that. So I’ve been listening to this stuff non-stop for like six months. When I feel full, I take a break. When I feel hungry again, I resume listening. Done. Because when we feel full, our energy field is telling us that it’s still integrating what we’ve received. When it’s been integrated, we feel ready for more. So it comes back to the body telling us what’s up.

So I just wanted to share this with you, since I’ve been talking about him so much. I’ll take you there with me in spirit, for sure. And who knows what will go down! Things get pretty crazy at these events. I’m ready to get my heart and mind blown open, though, so bring it on. And to be able to walk and chill amongst the redwoods, those mighty trees that they are, will make it all even better, the perfect space for this. So all the best to you, much love, and as always, peace out 🙂 I might have some things to say here before I go, but if not, I’ll see on the other side. And when I return, the guy that left Pensacola and travelled there, along with the guy that’s writing this right now, will be someone that I used to know. Which happens in every moment actually. So cool, and so freeing… Okay for real this time, peace out!

Happy 2018!

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Here we go, folks, another year is in the books and another begins… Happy New Year! I’m pretty psyched, if you can’t tell. Last year at this time I was dying, just about to come out of a pretty brutal heartbreak situation. Just about to… So I was totally still in it, a debilitating and prolonged hell of massive pain in the heart. But you know what the real problem was? I didn’t know how to love myself through it. I didn’t know how to love the innocent little kid inside that was hurting and that needed love. He thought he needed love from someone else, and that wasn’t happening in the way that he wanted it to. And the whole thing was totally irrational, too. And I knew that! But it didn’t stop the pain. Back to that little inner child, what I didn’t know was that what he really needed was my love. I finally “got it” this past summer. And I started writing about it right away, as well as bringing it to this work as the new cornerstone, the new foundation. And the results could be seen immediately. I called it A Clean Mind 3.0. (By the way, I already know what A Clean Mind 4.0 will be, but I’m still deepening it in my own life, which of course has to happen first. So stay tuned. Very exciting!)

So what are we going to focus on for 2018? That’s right, more of this crazy, radical, bite-sized self-love stuff! A full year of healing our heart whenever it needs it, anytime, anyplace. Listen – there’s a reason why I’m such a broken record about this. It’s because it’s the answer. Period. And doesn’t that only make sense? I mean, what’s the most powerful force in the universe? According to the religions, it is love. According to the spiritual traditions, it is love. According to the ones that have had spiritual openings and awakenings, (i.e. direct experience), it is love. According to the people that have had out of body and near death experiences (TONS of them going all the way back to BC time, which Plato wrote about), it is love. So why on earth wouldn’t we learn how to wield this massive power on a moment to moment basis as needed?? Exactly. Now we are. And it feels so right. How could anything else be the answer? And the other thing, which I’ll talk about below, is that the universe responds. That’s right, life gets better and smoother and more amazing. So be selfish! If you really want that awesome life, learn to love your heart first. Bam.

This is the first thing that any human can do to begin a profound shift, allowing more of the real Self that you already are to shine through. And that Self already knows what’s up. So you’re off the hook. It knows where to go, what to do, what to say, etc. The more you make it a habit to you love any part of you that’s hurting, the rest happens naturally. Being more wise, compassionate, patient – all of that just happens naturally, unfolding over time. Isn’t that cool?? I sure think so. Because the old way is to work super hard at cultivating those things that you want, with lots of pressure and often a bunch of self-loathing and criticism thrown in just for good measure. It’s like taking a nice long walk. In a pool of molasses… Not very cool.

People always ask how to DO this. Let me say up front that this isn’t easy for me to put into words, so I’m doing my best. I’m sure that a really effective way to talk about it will emerge, but we ain’t there yet. I often say it’s like breathing in a blast of love into your heart, where the pained inner child is. The inner child that’s sad, scared, confused, mad, or whatever. But it’s even more fundamental than that. It’s like you notice that part of you that’s not at peace and you simply give it some loving attention. Okay, that doesn’t sound any better… I’m really trying! It’s this inner embrace, this inner opening in your body, in your energy field. You recognize a part of you that’s hurting in any way, and you open up to it and embrace it, enveloping it in love and acceptance. You notice a part of you that’s closed off, and you open, right there in your body where you feel it. So it’s more of a feeling, an opening that you feel, than a thought, and it feels really nice.

Anyway, enough of that. Just read the Introducing A Clean Mind 3.0! post that I mentioned above, and also read the ones immediately before and after it. And Matt Kahn wrote a whole book about this called Whatever Arises, Love That. There’s also an audio companion course for it that he did through his publisher, Sounds True. And there’s that YouTube video of his about being nice to yourself that I always mention. This stuff works, folks, period. It really does.

So give it some time and let it deepen, because it does take time. Not that long, though. And of course I’ll always be here to remind you 🙂 Also remember that the subconscious mind is divided into foreign and familiar. So when something is foreign, it’s not supposed to feel familiar. That doesn’t mean it’s not working, though. Keep practicing, very gently, and this will start to feel more familiar. And then it’ll become second nature and you’ll be amazed at the idea of being mean to yourself. Even when you’re mad at yourself. Can you imagine how different your life would be if that were the case? So cool. And until then, read the recent post about that foreign feeling if you need to, because it’s really no big deal. It’s just energy that’s awaiting your loving attention. And then it’ll move after a while, if not right away.

So there we go, folks, setting up a whole new way of being. And here’s that universe piece that I mentioned above – as you love yourself more, the universe doesn’t need to remind you so much. How does it remind you? By letting you down. Hey, I’m just the messenger. But I’ve seen it a ton in my own life as well as in the lives of so many friends and clients. The universe definitely seems to shift the more loving we become with ourselves. Better life circumstances await. It’s pretty freaky, to be honest. This is TRUE REALITY, though – it’s just that nobody ever told us this when we were like five years old, so we haven’t believed it. That’s changing, though. Just devote this year to loving your heart whenever it needs it, and let’s see if your external world shifts. Keep me posted, in fact. And even if it doesn’t, you’re going to feel so much better that it won’t even matter. Alright folks, peace out, Happy New Year, Happy 2018, and let the games begin. And as always, let me know I can help, for it is my true joy, pleasure, and honor. You rock.