Book: Dying To Be Me

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Hello Good Folks. So we got The God Post out of the way, and then we talked about these deeper feelings of peace that supposedly live inside each of us, underneath our old pain and wounds. Now let’s talk about the amazing and transformative book that I’ve recently mentioned, Dying To Be Me by Anita Moorjani. Because what often happens is that I’ll read or listen to an amazing and transformative book that I know will be perfect for this blog. And then a couple days pass. And then a couple of weeks pass. And then a couple of months pass. You know where this is going… And I’ll remember how awesome the book was, but the details will have faded. And it never gets written about. But not this time! Let me start with the brief synopsis I wrote in The God Post. So I am plagiarizing myself. I think you can do that… And beware, this is another long post. We’re covering some major stuff here, though, so let’s just let it fly.

Dying To Be Me is one of the more detailed and amazing accounts of a near death experience (NDE) to date, coupled with being one of the more miraculous cancer comebacks. As in, a true medical/scientific miracle. From knocking on death’s door, body totally done and actively dying, to slipping into a coma and experiencing the true magnificence of what she is (and you and me, too, right now!), to making a total comeback. And in record time, too. That might be the most inexplicable part to modern medical science. They kept testing her for cancer cells and she kept saying not to bother because she knew the cancer was gone. And they were basically thinking the machines were broken since the cancer had left her body so quickly. And she had been full of tumors the size of lemons just a few weeks prior! The doctors said it was impossible that the cancer had left her body that fast, and other oncologists have since verified the medical records. The other cool thing is that she knew things she could not have known, like a conversation her husband had with a doctor while she was in a coma. But they were not in the same room, and they were out of earshot, and she even knew which doctor it was because she saw him (there were many doctors that attended to her). And there’s more that she knew as well. So for a skeptical type, this is very, very rich.

Part One sets things up with her childhood, and while it’s fairly long and drawn out, it’s important to understand the cultural pressures and that type of thing that were innocently placed upon her, leading to inner turmoil and conflict later, which eventually contributed to the creation of her cancer. And yes, you read that correctly – inner fears and stuff that contributed to the creation of her cancer. There’s more to cause and effect than meets the eye, good folks, and we’re starting to figure it out.

Anita was from an Indian family in Hong Kong. Now, I have lots of friends from India, and I LOVE them! You have no idea how much I love these people. They’re the most ridiculously nice people I’ve ever met. In fact, I thought one of them was going to give me his first born child once because I’d done something nice for him back in college and he was so appreciative. So how should we say this… India is not exactly the most advanced place in terms of gender equality. Women are pretty much raised to get married and be subservient to the man. And Anita’s soul screamed hell no, that’s not me! She ended up with an awesome and devoted husband who did not want the “slave” version of a wife anyway, so it all worked out. Still, there was some inner turmoil regarding living up to the expectations of others. And then some friends got cancer, and she became obsessed with it. This obsession led to a ton of fear surrounding cancer as well as most cancer treatments. Cue up more inner turmoil… And she eventually got cancer herself. She had a four-year dance with cancer in which she tried all kinds of treatments from holistic to conventional western treatments. After four years, her body was done. Toast. End of the line. Oxygen mask, feeding tube, totally frail, organs shutting down. She was actively dying.

Part Two begins here, as she’s being rushed to the hospital in this state and slips into a coma. And all of a sudden, she wants to tell her husband and the medical staff, “It’s all okay! I feel great! Why are you worrying so much?” And then she realizes they can’t hear her, because her physical body is in a coma. And the real Self that she is experiencing in that moment is not confined to a physical body anymore. Wha?? She is experiencing what might be called the Soul, the I Am presence, the true Self, or other names. And it’s limitless and feels AWESOME, by all accounts. You know everything. There’s total clarity, and it’s all so simple. And you need do nothing. Repeat, you need do nothing. Your simple existence – I Am, I Exist – is your ticket to unconditional love, always. Which she says, by the way, is freaking amazing! Words don’t even come close to describing it. There’s no judgment, either. And this is HUGE! As she says, “Judgment is a here thing (meaning earth), not a there thing.” It literally doesn’t exist. Bam! I’ll take some of that. A huge serving of total innocence, please! Wow… Our guilt, for most of us at least, is SO deep and unconscious. But we are starting to awaken to the truth of the matter more and more. And that’s what my life’s mission, and that of so many others at this time, is all about. Learning that, experiencing it, and sharing it with others. So it’s nice to be on the awakening journey with you. Awakening to what we already are.

Part Two is just amazing in so many ways, as she experiences the presence of both her father and her best friend, both of whom had died a few years prior. And they were (are) pure love. Pure love? Wow. And the message, the fact, is that as crazy as it might sound, pure love is literally your (and my) essence right now, without having to lift a finger. Almost all of us here on earth don’t remember, though, so that’s what we’re waking up to. And I’m in the exact same boat as you, trust me! In fact, I’ve recently been given some opportunities to see where I’m thinking I’m small, as opposed to this infinite, already perfect Self. Anita also experienced that time is not what we think it is. Just focus on something and you’re there. You can go anywhere in time and also slow it down and speed it up. And the new physics would agree, so that’s nice. And she experienced at least one “past life,” which she calls a “parallel life” since time isn’t actually real (it only seems to be linear and sequential here in the physical world).

And there’s lots more, too. Like the things she knew while in the out of body (OBE) state that checked out later with her husband, mother, brother, and the hospital doctors and nurses. They were all truly baffled. There’s lots of it, which is great for the skeptic! Because our worldview must explain how this is possible. And note that every person in every one of these accounts over the years has to be lying or else this is legit. And there of tons of these experiences, across cultures, generations, gender, age, socioeconomic status, predominant religion, etc. As a math major, it’s ridiculous to think that not one is telling the truth. Probability almost zero. Also I’ve noticed how skeptical folks can innocently come up with very detailed, complicated, and convoluted explanations for these phenomena. There’s one really simple explanation, though: This stuff is legit, it is actually more real than our earth world (doesn’t your past seem sort of like a dream?), and it’s just like they say. There are just waaaay too many of these accounts by now to ignore; take a look for yourself. And remember that it’s ultimately good news! This is really important to remember if it starts to rock your beliefs and worldview. I know from experience that this can be uncomfortable, so please know that I’m not minimizing it. And do let me know if I can help – seriously, you have support.

Now we get to the best part, which is Part Three, the final part of the book. It just keeps delivering the gold, right through to the Q&A at the end. This third part is where she’s had this amazing experience of her – and our – true Self. And this is what you and I are right freaking now!!! And I know that this is really hard to believe, trust me on that. We are literally already perfect, totally innocent, infintely creative and powerful and loving, and we don’t need to grow or heal or evolve. We need to remember. We come to earth and forget what we are, and I have no clue why. I’ve heard plenty of ideas over the years, and I’m working on it all the time – and I will always keep you posted on what I find out when I find it. And to be honest, this has made me pretty frustrated and pissed off over the years, wondering what the whole point is! But that hasn’t helped. Some say we simply like these experiences, literally as if we’re playing a totally realistic virtual reality video game. And as crazy as earth life can be, that makes as much sense to me as anything else.

So she’s had this amazing experience, and she chose to return to the body, making that choice from her full I Am power, the same power that’s YOUR true essence right now. Since she made the choice from the infinite power of her true Self, she absolutely knew that the cancer would have no chance. And you know what? There’s a medical chart at a hospital somewhere in Hong Kong that proves this. Her body “miraculously” made a full recovery, and she now has the rest of her life to live. How are things different? What did she learn? How has she changed? This is where it gets really good, in terms of stuff that we can learn to help us awaken to what we really are. The gist of it is that she knows that the mere fact that she exists gets her permanently into the party of unconditional love and worthiness. She is simply here to be herself, and that’s good enough. And by being ourself, our path will unfold. Done. And self love naturally comes into play as well. If we’re really this magnificent, eternal being, and we got confused and thought we were a body that was insecure at times and going do die someday, getting sick a bunch along the way, then OF COURSE we would do some terrible, selfish, mean, and fearful stuff! How would that not happen? So being super hard on ourselves is gone. Withholding love from ourselves is a thing of the past. Self love is the way, all the time. We’ve talked about this a ton here at this blog, especially back in February of this year, and experiences like hers validate that even more. And again, there are TONS of these experiences. Take a look around. This just happens to be a very rich one.

Another big shift for Anita is that when she’s stressed, the first thing she does is get centered. She’s found that when she does so, the situation will often work itself out, or will at least get way more manageable than before. When she tries to handle the situation while stressed, though, she inevitably won’t do as good a job. And again, after getting centered it will often resolve itself! We’ve talked about this here before, but the cool thing is that from her point of view, she experienced that each of us is literally the center of Oneness. So “getting centered” is not just expression, it’s the literal, factual truth! Whoa. And we are at the center of our universe all the time, it’s just that when we’re stressed or triggered, we’re not aware of it. So she might take a walk, listen to music, sit on the beach, have ice cream, meditate, or whatever it takes in that moment. And then when she feels centered, she will revisit the situation as appropriate. So cool. And you can start experimenting with this today if you’d like 🙂

There’s so much more, really too much to cover here. She talks about diet, religious and spiritual paths, feelings, growth, feeling perfection in any moment, manifesting/attracting versus allowing (but as the Self, not the self – big difference), doing versus being, self-judgment as one of our main problems, living your life fearlessly, how to let your path unfold (just be yourself – don’t be lazy, though!), and more. And she sums it all up with the analogy of the blind person, and we will close with this. This is big. She said her experience out of body was like if a blind person could suddenly see for the first time. They’ve lived their whole life trying to understand things like color, with people trying to explain it to them over and over again, in many different ways: “Blue is cool, red is warm, etc.” And then suddenly they can see! “Oh, that’s blue. And that’s red. Wow, the words just couldn’t do it. Now I know!” Can you imagine how there’s simply no substitute for being able to see? Then she said if that person were to become blind again, even though they could no longer see, they would have the memory. So they’d be in a totally different boat than they had been in before. And that’s Anita’s experience now. She’s no longer in that state, but she remembers. So she feels way more expanded and free than she did before her NDE. And you and I are using experiences like hers and so many others to start chipping away at our beliefs of smallness and our misperceptions about what we really are. So cool. I’m sure we will be talking more about this. And I know this is powerful stuff and can shake your foundation, too! I respect that a lot, trust me. So keep in mind that the moral of the story is that our true reality is way beyond anything than our earthly minds could even imagine. And way better! And you have support if needed. Much love to you.

Do I Have To Meditate?

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Someone read my recent post called Plugging In and was somewhat turned off, because she had certain ideas around what she thought of as “meditation.” What popped in her head was super formal meditation with spine straight as a board and possible back pain. She reread the post, though, and realized it wasn’t really about that. I’m glad she honored her intuition and reread it! And can you see how we’re always wearing these sunglasses of perception? So when we reread something, the “me” that reads it the second time is different than the “me” that read it the first time. So we might have a different experience, as she did. I wanted to write a brief post, though, to make sure we are clear: you don’t have to meditate or sit straight or do anything you don’t want to do! You are the rule maker, cops, judge, and jury. It’s just that most people believe otherwise, so we tend to have a whole laundry list of “shoulds” that we think we have to do. The spiritual world is full of that, and part of my job is to debunk it. Having said all of that, though, meditation can be very, very helpful to most of us, at least for some period of time.

The idea of the post that I wrote was that it might help at first to set the timer and sit some with eyes closed. I could care less about your spine being totally straight, though. And I know that many paths are way into that; I’m not, but whatever floats your boat is 100% fine! Some people get so bogged down in “doing it right,” though, that they miss the point. And so they miss the peace… And I know because I was that guy, big time! Wow… Fortunately, I finally listened to my intuition and was able to ditch that practice and laugh at myself. Maybe I’ll tell those stories sometime, because it really was pretty funny. The practice I was doing at the time, which ended about ten years ago, was about as detailed and complex as it gets. And don’t get me wrong, it was very powerful! But my left-brained, math major, perfectionistic Virgo self had a field day. And that’s putting it mildly… And despite having cool energetic experiences, true peace eluded me. So I moved on.

What we’re going for here is WAY more chill. As I think I heard Syd Banks say, we’re really more interested in the state of meditation than the act of meditation. But spending some time in the act of meditation can clear out some layers so that we can more readily access the state of meditation. That’s exactly what my client in that post has been experiencing, and the same holds true for myself as well. I did a ton of meditating back in the day, but it’s been a long time since I’ve done it in the ensuing years. Most of my sessions with clients end with a brief guided meditation, though, so that we can feel those deeper feelings of peace and thus have an experience rather than just talking about it. Big difference. So I’m doing that a good bit.

The act of meditation is great, and I’ve done a lot of it, but we don’t want it to be a crutch. It can definitely help us to quiet the mind and access those deeper feelings of peace, though. But after a while, let’s try to practice dropping into that state anytime, anyplace. I always talk about remembering that you’re infinite and innocent – and feeling it – while you’re shopping at the grocery store! It’s pretty cool. And while you’re living in the state of meditation more and more, you can still spend some time in the act of meditation as much – or as little – as you want.

So feel out what works for you, and be honest with what your heart tells you. If you feel like a more “formal” practice would be beneficial, then do it. And if you don’t, then don’t. It’s probably beneficial for most of us, though, at least for some amount of time, especially if all this is new. But try to drop into those deeper feelings regardless. After all, that’s what we’re really after. If meditation can help you get there more quickly, and it probably can, then it’s worth its weight in gold. And you might take a break for a while, and then you might return again, dropping even more deeply into those spacious feelings. And remember that you are innocent regardless! When we drop the “shoulds,” we get in touch with that innocence a whole lot more. And that feels really, really good.

Bookending Your Day

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Hi folks, I’m going to attempt to write a short blog post today. No promises, though. I think tried it once before, maybe a year ago. And, well, I guess I forgot… But this one will be perfect, and super powerful, too! Because we’ve been getting into some seriously powerful stuff recently, and this is a continuation of that, putting it into ACTION more and more. It’s all so simple and specific, too – I love it. I really am pretty pumped up right now. Folks, this is literally A Clean Mind 3.0 that’s being birthed now as my understanding of how stuff works deepens. And it’s my honor to share this journey of understanding with you!

It all started when we talked about how there are deeper feelings of peace that are built into each of us, as a client has recently been experiencing. Then we made a specific meditation or practice out of it, which can be done sitting with eyes closed or while shopping in the grocery store or in your favorite mall. We called it plugging in, but it’s really all about stopping and noting that you are already plugged in. Just sayin You were created plugged in, and you didn’t make yourself. And it’s not the kind of plug that can be pulled out of the socket. It’s all One. There is no true separation in reality, and even physics has figured that out (almost a century ago). Which means that you are as plugged in as it gets, all the time. It’s all about the awareness of this FACT, though, in any moment. So… let’s talk about the concept of bookending your days! Because it helps you to remember the truth.

So, what on earth does “bookending your days” mean? One of the definitions of “bookend” is a verb, meaning to “occur or be positioned at the end or on either side of something.” So we simply start and end our days right. And since thought is the cause of everything, we start and end our days thinking right. And since feeling comes from thought, we start and end our days feeling right. And why not do this while we’re actually in bed, both before we get out of bed in the morning and after we’ve gotten into bed in the evening? Sounds like a very convenient plan. So we simply do the practice of reminding ourselves that we are plugged into an infinite source, the creative source of the entire universe, right now! And we sink into the feeling that comes from that, breathing it into every cell of our body. We feel the whole universe flowing through us. I’m serious, people! Ahh…. Feels so good (wait, is that Chuck Mangione?? An inside joke from the King of the Hill cartoon).

So let me get this straight… We’re talking about FEELING plugged into the power source of the entire universe? And feeling this awesome, powerful feeling before we even get out of bed in the morning? And feeling it before we drift off to sleep each night? Can we really do that?? Yes! But rather than take my word for it, why not just try it out for two weeks to see what happens? Warning: there’s a pretty decent chance your life will not be the same. So there we go, we’ve introduced the concept of bookending your day. Now it’s time for practice. And another note regarding quantum physics, our everyday understanding is way outdated. It does not reflect the newer science at all. Newer, meaning from almost one hundred years ago. So we’re not exactly tearing it up, speed-wise… But connected means connected. It means not separate. You and everything else in the whole universe, now. So when we talk about something like “feeling the entire universe flowing through you,” we’re talking science! Not woowoo. Not spiritual. Factual. BAM! I get excited…

Here’s a word regarding what we’re thinking and feeling before we drift off to sleep. Wayne Dyer talks about just this very thing in his book Wishes Fulfilled. He believes that the five minutes before we fall asleep is crucial. He talks about how the vast majority of the mind is subconscious, and it’s really, really, really, really, really powerful. And it makes things happen in the world. It brings us gifts, good or bad. And it doesn’t know the difference, doesn’t care. So if we fall asleep while dwelling on how crappy our day was, our super powerful subconscious mind says, “Sweet, I guess you like these crappy things. So while you sleep, I’ll get you some more of them for tomorrow and for the days ahead!” Wha? The other option is to consider that you are infinite and unlimited before drifting off to sleep, and to feel what that feels like. Umm, which of those two options sounds better? Wayne says that the subconscious mind doesn’t use language and is programmed by feeling; that’s why the feeling state is so important. And my view is not to debate this stuff with the mind, but rather to feel it out instead. Does this sound plausible? Does it feel right? Why not give it a shot? At the very least, I’d rather feel good as opposed to feeling stressed out and depressed, so it sounds like a good idea to me regardless of whether the subconscious stuff is true or not. And if not, you’ll probably see some things begin to shift in your life. And that’s pretty powerful when you see that happen. Like, very powerful. In fact, it totally changes your view of cause and effect.

So there we go, we’ve introduced the concept of bookending your days. I invite you to play with this for a while. What’s the worst that can happen, you might feel super powerful and infinite and unlimited and at peace? That would suck… Just kidding. Seriously, though, give it a shot! And definitely let me know if anything cool or freaky or out of the ordinary goes down. And as I alluded to regarding cause and effect above, you can know that we’re starting to get outside the small box that is the conventional 3D earth rules. In fact, we’re just barely starting to blast that tiny little box away. So some interesting things might happen as a result… They will all be moving you toward an amazing life, though. Remember the moral of the story in Michael Singer’s awesome book The Surrender Experiment: life knows what it’s doing. And it’s actually always happening for you. Practicing the bookends might be a way to sort of speed things up, or to consciously drop into that flow. So happy practicing, and as always, let me know if I can help!

Plugging In

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Yesterday, we talked about how a client has been experiencing deeper feelings of peace lately, underneath the comings and goings of various emotions and stresses. She started by meditating a lot, and it really didn’t take very long before she could just sort of “drop in” to a more peaceful state pretty much at will. It’s pretty cool, so I’d definitely check it out and give it some thought. Because at the end of the day, her true essence is exactly the same as yours! That’s a fact, and what a nice fact. I started experiencing the same thing years ago, and the feeling is really nice. I’m starting to understand it more now, too (with plenty of room to grow…). Most of us are just not used to living this way, so it can take a while for this to become our more normal state, our HOME. Remembering is the key, since our mind can be so active. Plus, the world is so fast paced and busy these days. All good, though – this is why we practice. Gently practice. No pressure 🙂

So let’s turn this into a really specific practice that you can do pretty much anywhere, anytime. Call it a meditation if you like, but it can be more “on the go” than what most people think of as formal meditation. And I love “on the go.” But first, we’ll start with a more structured meditation sort of thing. So just sit down, close your eyes, and let the world go for a little while. Then just sink into the thought of, “I’m plugged into my Source right now.” And feel that, feel what that means, breathe it into every cell of your body. And know that there’s only one Source that powers everything up. It’s been called God, Mind, Source, the Power of the Universe, Oneness, etc. There’s an unseen energy, though, that makes everything happen in this world. Then we look at quantum physics from almost one hundred years ago, and it was discovered that everything is connected. Sounds familiar… Then we study the near death experiences (NDEs), and the many, many accounts that are out there describe the most amazing feeling, connected to everything all the time, totally loved and loving and worthy. Sounds familiar… It’s literally all good. And they say that this is actually our reality right NOW, and we’ve simply forgotten. So let’s practice remembering! And this practice or meditation is a great – and fast – way to do just that.

So you sit down, close your eyes, let the world go for now, and then feel into the thought, “I’m plugged in right now to THE unlimited source of power and love.” And breathe with that, feel that. Let it sink in. “I’m plugged into the power of the entire universe right now. Wow. Right now, without having to lift a finger. I’m connected to the Source of all things right now. I didn’t get left out – that just wouldn’t make sense. Wow.” And you might find that the feeling in your body starts to shift. You’re thinking these thoughts very slowly and letting them sink into your body, using the breath. And when you think about it, the real YOU is already in there! So it know exactly what to do. So just play with it. This would be so much better in video form, too, so that you can see what I mean about feeling these words, these thoughts. I’ve always wanted to have more videos, so I’ll have to get on that. I doubt it’ll happen anytime soon, though… And that’s okay, I still love myself fully!

After practicing this and relaxing into this kind if thinking – which in my vast research is 100% true! – your body will start to fall into that awesome deeper feeling faster and faster. And you might start to drop into it at a red light or in the parking lot before you drive somewhere or after you arrive. And you might drop into it at your desk while at work. And then you might drop into this feeling with your eyes open, while you’re listening to someone talk. And then you might drop into it while you’re the one that’s talking! Or while you’re walking. Walking out in nature, or… in the grocery store. Because at the end of the day, you’re equally plugged in regardless. It’s just that you might be aware of it (and thus feel it) in some places more easily than others. So cool… Just play it with and see what happens. Give it some time, though. But once you’ve tasted what we’re talking about, you’ll be hooked. And it’ll get easier and easier. And then it’ll be the really big stuff that rocks you; the smaller stuff just won’t have the same effect (unless you let it build up).

Also note as you play with this that we’re really moving away from words, away from being so verbal all the time. Words are really a layer or two removed from the feeling, so we first use them to help “get us there,” and then we rely on them less and less. Just go there non-verbally sometime, and practice that. Or you might find that it takes fewer and fewer words to “drop in.” And don’t effort on any of this! I guess I’m mentioning this because sometimes the words have less of an effect over time. It might be kind of like how you can get used to a certain food or song, or you might build a tolerance to a certain substance. Again, just play with it.

So that’s our practice. “I’m plugged in, right now… Wow…” And it’ll hit you more and more that you can never not be plugged in. It’s simply not possible. This is a scientific fact, just sayin’. You can quite easily be unaware of the fact that you’re plugged into an infinite source of power, though. We’re such powerful beings, in fact, that we can believe we’re actually small and separate! When nothing could be further from the truth… And hey, I feel that way all the time – it’s a really good illusion here on earth. But we’re starting to see through the veils to what’s really going on. So all we’re doing here is reminding ourselves of the truth, which is that we couldn’t be disconnected from our Source if we tried. That means that you are an infinite and unlimited being, right now. You are not a “meat suit.” This post is entitled Plugging In, but I almost called it Plugged In because it’s really about remembering that we are always plugged in, permanently. And we have no choice in that. And when you drop into that recognition, that remembrance, more and more, it feels really, really, really good. It’s a deeper feeling of peace. And it’s inside of you and me right now. So happy practicing, and as always, let me know if I can help!

Deeper Feelings of Peace, in YOU

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The other day, a client said she wanted to describe something that she had been experiencing lately. You see, she’s made it a priority in the last few months to stay as centered as possible. One thing that’s helped her is meditation. So she’s been meditating pretty consistently at home, and then it turned into shorter little meditations elsewhere if she found she was off-kilter, like stressed out or anxious or whatever. Work is a common place for that, so she’d pause and breathe for a very short period of time when she noticed she was off, and her body and mind would click back into place faster and faster. Then with a more relaxed body and mind, she would respond to the situation. And of course she would then handle it way better than if she had tried to do it while stressed. A win-win! Aren’t those nice?

So she noticed that as she lived this way more and more, gently practicing, she could sort of “drop in” to that deeper place of peace faster and faster. And after a while, she noticed that she didn’t even have to officially “meditate” to get there. It was becoming more her normal state, or at least a state that was never too far away. And that’s a VERY big deal for a human. This state was certainly not as far away as it used to be, and actually she used to not even know it existed! And it was inside of her since she was born… And that really seems to be the human condition.

So she was trying to explain this to me, and she was searching for the right words. She said something like, “It might not make sense, but I’ve noticed that I don’t even have to really meditate like I used to, and I’m still experiencing these…” And she paused, waiting for the right words. And I said, “Deeper feelings?” And she said, “Yes, that’s exactly what it is!” And I explained that I’d experienced the same thing before, and I had just started reading Michael Neill’s new book The Space Within: Finding Your Way Back Home that puts the perfect words on it. Deeper feelings. Deeper feelings of peace, contentment, safety, and “okayness.” I love that word, by the way (even though it’s probably not really a word. Except in Scrabble, because everything is a word in Scrabble. Back to the story…) If you really look, you might see that when we’re triggered, we’re pretty much saying that what is happening now is not okay. But the only problem is that it’s already happening… So if we can have this foundation that I am at least okay, even if life isn’t how I want it to be right now, then I’ll feel better and I’ll respond to the situation much better. Again, there’s that win-win. And this is exactly what my client has been experiencing. Bam!

In his book, Neill makes an awesome analogy. He says imagine you’re on a huge barge on totally flat, calm, still water. No waves, no storms, nothing dangerous at all. Total safety and beauty. But there’s a roller coaster on the barge, and you’re riding the roller coaster. But there’s one more thing – you’re blindfolded. So you have no idea where you are. You don’t know about the huge, safe barge or the super tranquil water. Instead, all you know is that you keep getting whizzed around, up and down, left and right. You feel far from safe! But if you take the blindfold off and see what’s going on, you can chill out since you realize that wow, you’re actually totally safe. There’s something safe and calm that the fluctuations of the roller coaster are happening on top of. So the safety and calmness is deeper. And knowing this, the ups and downs of the roller coaster become less and less of a big deal. You might or might not like it, but you aren’t afraid for your life. So you aren’t freaking out like you might’ve been before. It’s a totally different situation.

This is how life is with our emotional ups and downs, lefts and rights. As you practice what we talk about here at A Clean Mind and in so many other places now, these fluctuations just become less powerful. Less thick. Less dense. Less opaque. You start to experience what we are calling deeper feelings, like peace and contentment. I imagine that after a while, this really becomes your HOME. It’s always there – it’s built-in, in fact – but it sure doesn’t seem like it! That’s because the emotional fluctuations cover it up. And nobody tells us this stuff yet in our relatively un-evolved society (like when we’re in elementary school or at the very least, middle school). I mean, we can send a rover to Mars but we don’t understand and teach kids thoughts and feelings??????? Okay, rant narrowly averted…..

So consider that this might actually be true; just consider it. That deep inside of you there is a feeling of peace that’s deeper than all of your other emotions. It’s the foundation on which the other ones come and go. If you feel to meditate, do it. And if you’re just starting out, I always recommend searching the internet for free guided meditations rather than fighting the chatterbox. It’s just faster that way. And then you might do it on your own after you get the hang of it. Just feel it out, because you are in charge of you. But also see if you can’t sort of “relax into” or “fall into” or “drop into” this deeper place anytime, anyplace. Without even closing your eyes. In the grocery store. At work. Because you never know what you might find, and how cool would it be if this were indeed true! Wow… Many humans are experiencing it more and more these days as we are slooooowly waking up to what we really are, beyond the body. It feels nice, that’s for sure. So I was thrilled after my client mentioned this to me. And I was thrilled that I had the perfect words for it, as well as the perfect analogy. Big thanks to Michael Neill for that, and the synchronistic timing is cool, too. Happy practicing, and as always, let me know if I can help!

Optional Deeper Part: Okay folks, I’m totally struggling with my direction now, since this blog has drifted into way deeper waters lately than I ever thought it would. “Struggling” isn’t the right word, though, because I am definitely relaxing into it and letting it evolve, letting it play out, letting it sort of be birthed. And I’m being totally honest right now, which feels really good. I’m starting to think that two blogs might be appropriate, but I don’t know. But in the meantime, here we are! And we’ve just written The God Post, and I’m about to write a post about Anita Moorjani’s book Dying To Be Me. It’s almost finished, and it’s another monster post. Hey, we have a lot to talk about! So let’s just say that we have some tie-ins with this deeper peace. Anita’s experience of God as not a being, but rather a state of being, which is our natural state – that’s exactly what my client is experiencing. It might be just the beginning, but it’s the same thing. It’s what is there when we get out of the way more and more. So we don’t have to find peace; we have to get out of the way. It came with the package, as unbelievable as that may sound to so many. It’s actually our foundation. Also, Anita talks about first getting centered when stressed, and then dealing with the situation. And she said that sometimes the situation takes care of itself without her having to do anything! And this is exactly what my client has been doing. So cool… So there we go, just some tie-ins to the recent deeper stuff. As always, you rock, and much love to you wherever you may be!

The God Post

Posted Posted in Breathe Yoga Newsletter, Essential Topics, Spirituality/Religion

NOTE: If you’re here to check me out as a potential counselor, this might or might not be a good measuring stick of what you’ll find, depending on your beliefs. I love to write about my take on “deep stuff,” but I’m an excellent and effective counselor for an atheist, too! I do my best to teach facts about our thoughts and feelings that alone can change your life, and you don’t usually get it in a counselor’s office. Such is that state of counseling now, lots of theories that may or may not help you. I prefer facts when possible. There are all kinds of posts on this blog, so take a look around as you wish. Thanks for stopping by, and all the best to you whether we meet or not. Here we go…

So we’ve been talking about the idea that we might actually live in a neutral universe, meaning that all the judgments that we constantly – and largely unconsciously – put onto everything are simply our own unique creations and not The Truth. Then we talked about the cool exercise of viewing people as trees, which is along the same lines and really makes the point. And we talked about how neutrality means that there’s no ultimate good or bad. Which means that there’s no judge to decide ultimate good or bad. But what about what people call “God?” Isn’t that the ultimate judge of good and bad?? So basically, my own blog pulled one over on me and very smoothly Jedi’d me into writing about what God might mean and might not mean, totally unbeknownst to me. I’ve been trying to stay away from this! I’ve had HUGE shifts recently in this department, though, so the timing is absolutely perfect. And this is really why I’m here anyway. When I started this “work” as a therapist and blogger five years ago (YAY!), and even when I wrote the post about neutrality just a couple of weeks ago, I had no idea it would lead to this. It’s like if you’re playing chess and someone starts to work you into a corner several moves ahead. They know where it’s headed, but you don’t. And then you’re there. And that someone is the whole universe, or God. And it’s probably not the idea of God you’ve learned about in church (unless you go to Unity or something more like that).

And please know that this is simply the beginning of a discussion about the concept of God, the truth about what God really is, and of course any mis-truths about it. Let’s be super chill as we read this and just ponder it. You are in charge of your beliefs, and only you! So all is good, all is relaxed. The earth is still spinning just fine, and there’s no rush for anything. Just let things sink in if they want to sink in. It’s just the beginning of a discussion, not a finished product or idea, no big deal. Okay, let’s do this…

As I recently wrote, I left religion when I was 17, because while I saw some divine in it, I perceived that it was wrapped in way too much man made stuff. Or maybe we should say human made stuff? Actually, the women are probably happy to let the men be blamed for this, which they actually are largely responsible for. And yay, the Goddess is finally returning! Wait, enough men bashing… Anyway, I’ve had quite a journey since. That was 25 years ago. And yes, my genes and immaturity make me seem much younger than I am. And I drink lots of water, too. Health tips from Ashley! Probably not the best idea…

Fast forward to just a month or two ago, and what a journey it has been! I never could have imagined what’s been happening, and I feel like it’s just now getting to a good place to really take off, to be honest. And I’m talking strictly about my “level or consciousness” or inner peace. Everything else flows outward from that. And speaking of levels of consciousness and peace, I think those are just a direct result of how much of “what we really are” is coming through this temporary being called Ashley (or insert your own name). How much of the soul is coming through and how much is ego. And trust me, there’s still plenty of ego in this body! Hey, I am where I am. And it’s actually quite perfect, which I’m finally starting to see and not resist so much.

So recently I realized just how much baggage I had with the word “God.” I’ve known this for years, but I’ve recently seen it more deeply. There was just a deep sense of separation in what that word meant to me. And I know that this is only one person’s experience, my own! So I have no idea what yours is. But I saw that no matter what I tried to tell myself consciously, deep down God meant a being that was separate from me. And there was implicit judgment and fear associated with this being. And I was never even into the mean, insecure Old Testament God, either! Which is an example of making God in man’s image, by the way, as opposed to the other way around. I was consciously believing that there’s no such thing as separation, but I was not feeling and experiencing that. Folks, this conditioning is very deep and unconscious in many, many of us… All good, though, because we are starting to figure it all out!

So my friend and teacher that I’ve mentioned before, John Mark Stroud, said to just call God “All That Is” instead. Because it’s just a freaking word! Don’t let a certain combination of three letters of one random language derail you. That’s pretty weak… So “all that is” helped a lot and really got me started towards a new understanding. And I’m doing my best with this whole capitalization thing, by the way. Let’s not be too picky about that. After all, words are just pointers…

So then I listened to the book Wishes Fulfilled by Wayne Dyer, whom I just love, and he calls God “the creative source of the universe.” Which is not separate from its creations, by the way. So you can see that we’re hammering away at this idea of separation and moving into Oneness. Or oneness, ha. There’s the capitalization thing again… And remember that the quantum physicists did the same thing almost one hundred years ago! And we’re still teaching separation to our children. It’s shifting, but as I’ve said before, this can be like turning the Titanic. But it’s happening. Even science obliterated the idea of true, 100% separation I think in the 1920’s. True separation does not, and cannot, exist in this universe. Let that sink in for a moment… (And know that it’s very good news)

So fast forward to just a couple of weeks ago, and the book Dying To Be Me by Anita Moorjani has BLOWN ME AWAY! Wow….. I’ve been listening to it on Audible like I did Wishes Fulfilled, and I just finished it this morning as I’m writing this. And I’ve been sending it to just about everyone I can think of. Audible lets you text or email a free copy to friends. The app is super convenient, too. I’m sure I’ll be writing about this particular book in much more detail soon, so let’s just give a little bit of background. It’s one of the more detailed and amazing near death experiences (NDEs) to date, coupled with being one of the most miraculous cancer comebacks. As in, a true medical/scientific miracle. From knocking on death’s door, body totally done, and actively dying, to slipping into a coma and experiencing the true magnificence of what she is (and you and me, too, right now!), to making a total comeback. And in record time, too. That might be the most inexplicable part to modern medical science. They kept testing her for cancer cells and she kept saying not to bother because it’s gone. And they were thinking the machines were broken since the cancer had left her body so quickly. And she had been full of tumors the size of lemons just a few weeks prior! The doctors said it was impossible that the cancer had left that fast, and other oncologists have since verified the medical records. The other cool thing is that she knew things she could not have known, like a conversation her husband had with a doctor while she was in a coma. But they were not in the same room, and they were out of earshot, and she even knew which doctor it was (there were many doctors that saw her). And there’s more that she knew as well. So for a skeptical type, this is very, very rich.

So how does this play into our discussion of what “God” might really mean? Speaking from my own journey, or course… We’ve gone from a being that’s separate from me that might or might not judge me, but for some reason I sure judge myself and feel fear and guilt regardless! And we’ve moved to “all that is” and “the creative source of the universe,” which is not separate from its creations. So it’s really the same as “all that is.” Remember, these are just words doing their best to point to meaning. And then we come to what Anita discovered and experienced: “And then I was overwhelmed by the realization that God isn’t a being, but a state of being… and I was now that state of being!” Are you starting to see – and perhaps feel – what a major shift this is? I can only speak from my experience, but it’s hard to explain how profound this has been for my self concept. For many, many years, I’ve believed consciously that we are not our body but rather something huge and awesome that animates it. Call it the soul or whatever. But unconsciously, I’ve totally believed the opposite! My body tells me all the time when I’m thinking I’m small. If I KNEW that I were infinite, eternal, and pure love, which is what Anita experienced, then I wouldn’t get triggered all the time. My buttons wouldn’t get pushed. In fact, I doubt there would even be any buttons to get pushed! We’ll be getting into this in far more detail in the future, because it’s just now coming into focus how my work is shifting. But here’s a summary for now: it’s all about what you truly believe yourself to be: big or small, soul/spirit or body, etc. – and everything else is merely an effect of that. Done. So we will be talking very specifically in future writings about what that looks like for us here on earth.

Well, that’s enough for now, folks. This represents the beginning of the next phase of the work that I’ll be doing. And if it’s a bit clunky, please cut me some slack! This stuff isn’t always easy to talk about, and you know that I’m always doing my best. And this is brand new for me, too. I’ll continue to get out of the way more and more and just let it come through. And what’s coming through me is equal in essence to what is inside of you right now. There are no levels; it’s just how much is coming through. Let that sink in! And that includes all the great ones of this time and before – they are not any better than you truly are right now. So take these words in and see if it’s perhaps good news regarding your concept of God. Perfect love with absolutely NO judgment, which we’ll be talking about soon, sure sounds like an upgrade… And if you find yourself feeling triggered right now or defending a version of God from a path you’ve been on, that’s fine, too! But if you get honest and don’t truly KNOW, then you might want to drop into “show me the money” attitude. And I highly, highly, highly recommend reading and/or listening to Dying To Be Me. It answers SO many questions. It’s all right there, clearly explained. And no beliefs, but rather experience. Let’s leave the world of beliefs behind. And it’s just her experience, but if you look into this type of thing, you’ll find lots of similarities in different people’s stories. And it’s generally very, very good news. Because it means you’re innocent, right now. Despite all the reasons you think you might be guilty. Also relax and give it some time. There’s no rush at all. Let things shake out a bit. Just “chop wood and carry water” for now, as I think the Buddhists have said. We’ll be talking much more about this, I’m sure. I’ve always thought it was going to be in another blog called A Deep Mind, but I’m starting to wonder now. I don’t really want two blogs anyway, because I have enough trouble keeping up with one while still maintaining my social life. And there’s only one truth, whatever it is. So we might as well talk about it in once place. Thanks for reading, and I send you love on your journey of discovering what you already are.